Stay With Me - PJM - Book 1

Chapter 26

SophiSophia's POV

"But why?" I looked at him startled.

Didn't he just say everything was fine?

He walked towards me and took my hands into his and looked into my eyes. Everything was happening all of a sudden. I wasn't ready for any of this. 

"Sophia please try to understand the situation" he said with pleading eyes. Tears threatened to fall from my eyes.

What was that suppose to mean?

I looked at him dumbly. My mind was still trying to process everything. I wasn't able to think straight. Nothing felt right. I was trying to understand his words but they seemed to just vanish before they could reach me. My mind felt jammed all I could think about was that 'If everything is alright then why is he leaving early?'

My heart which was still trying to mend itself from the fact that I had to live away from Jimin after a few days suddenly felt heavy. The fact that I had enough days in my hands to make memories with him kept me going. And now this sudden change felt like a splash of icy cold water over me.

Within a short period of time he had become that important person of my life without whom it would be hard to even breathe. And there was only one night left and then he will be gone.

The fact that even if I try hard enough I won't be able to stop it from happening made me feel weak. My head felt heavy. I was sad, scared that if he goes away I might lose him. I wasn't ready for this, not yet.

Warm droplets of tears rolled down my cold cheeks. And the next moment my vision started failing, I couldn't see anything clearly. Everything seemed like a blurred scene. A sudden pain bolted through my head making me squint and suddenly everything was still and dark and I felt myself fall freely. Everything felt numb and light. The blackness was comforting and it made me feel light. It felt good to be able to escape the reality at this moment.

The last voice I heard was Jimin calling my name, there was worry in his voice and then everything turned into a silent dark night.

After what seemed like hours I heard footsteps enter the room and leave. There were people around me talking in low voices. I kept my eyes closed, I didn't wanted to wake up and face the reality again. I just wanted to run away from everything. But it wasn't in my hands. I felt tears roll down the side of my eyes.

I don't want to open my eyes, please.

"Sophia?" I heard Jimin's voice. The worry in his voice made my heart ache. My breath got caught in my throat.

What am I doing? I can't leave him alone. I have to be strong.

My eyes fluttered open as I tried to adjust the brightness in the room. It was their room and I was lying on their bed. I looked towards him. His face looked pale and tired. He was really worried. 

How long have I been like this?

Thinking about it made me feel scared. I already had a very little time to spend with him and now I didn't know how much more left. In order to escape from reality I was on my way of losing even the little time that was left.