Stay With Me - PJM - Book 1

Chapter 19

Jungkook POV

She looked at me startled.

After all who gives up on his love. And she was my first.

"You don't have to say anything. I know you love Hyung" I said. I knew she did and I was the reason why she was not admitting it. I didn't wanted her to stop herself just because of me.

When I saw Jimin confess to her, I was shocked and so was she. Her expression was almost unreadable. I waited for her to answer. I expected her to say no but didn't. The moment she said she didn't deserved him there was so much pain and regret in her voice and I knew what she was thinking. That moment felt like a thousand needles in my heart.

I never wanted to come between Jimin  and his love. He was my brother.

I waited there in silence as I watched Jimin open up about how he felt towards her. She just listened to him and when She didn't reply to him when he asked her to tell him if she loved me, it was clear she loved him and not me. I never felt my heart ache so much before.

Maybe she wasn't mine after all.

"I'm sorry" she said and hugged me tight. The words felt like sharp knife stabbing right through my heart.

Maybe I was still hoping for something.

I held her around her waist and with the other hand I stroked her hair gently. The tears which I was holding back came rushing out.

I really loved this girl.

We stayed like that for what seemed like forever. Forever was and exaggeration, I wasn't that lucky. She wasn't mine. Not anymore.

I wiped off my tears accepting the painful fact and pulled back. Looking at her I smiled.

"Will you be my best friend forever?" I said sniffing.

Finally she smiled and nodded. I missed her smile.

"Thank you" she said, still crying.

"Let's go in it's late, Hyung might have passed out by now" I chuckled and she looked at me startled.

"What? I am really happy" I said ruffling her hair. She smiled.

My heart was already broken into a thousand pieces but it was better not to show. I knew no one could ever fix it completely, for she was my first love.

***

We found Jimin sitting on the couch all alone. The lights were on. His face looked pale and he looked tensed, drowned into deep thoughts.

"Still awake?" I said and his eyes darted towards us.

"Umm yeah" he shrugged and shifted his gaze to Sophia. I looked at her, she was looking back at him and all that came to my mind at that moment was that she doesn't belonged to me. The words kept repeating itself in my head like a broken record. I shook my head mentally.

"Tell him that you love him" I whispered in her ears softly.

I looked back at Jimin and he immediately looked away. Probably he was thinking that Sophia and I were together.