Stars in her Eyes

The results, the secrets, the lies

It is about six months later, you are married to Benedict. ‘It all happened so fast’ you think as you sit waiting. You had called your best friend, Lucy, to sit with you whilst you wait, “Six months ago, you didn’t know the guy and now you are married and…” You begin to cry, Ben had been away for the last month filming, you skype him daily and he phones you when you wake up in the morning but you miss him deeply. “Don’t cry! It’ll be okay! It might not be positive!” Lucy hugs you tight and you open your mouth to speak but nothing comes out.

“It might be positive and what then? He is always filming which is important to him but, I never see him anymore Luce.” You know that Benedict’s job is important to him so you made a pledge to yourself a couple of months ago to not get in his way.

You look down at the test, it beeps and tears start to form in the corner of your eyes. “Well?” Lucy says with great anticipation. You past the test to her and she gasps, “You are going to be a mum!” she cries. You should be happy, but you are not. You hadn’t planned this and your relationship with Ben is moving too quickly for your liking.

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It is a few weeks later and Ben had been home a week. You still hadn’t told him about the baby, you don’t know how to. Ben kept disappearing off to do ‘stuff’ so each time he goes out you phone Lucy, asking her what you should do and how you should do it. “Hun, I am just going out to do-”

“-stuff, yeah I know just go.” You finish his sentence as he strolls out of the door. You should probably wonder where he is going but right now you don’t care because you are too wrapped up in the issue that you have here. You phone Lucy, “Hey Luce.”

“Hey y/n, have you told him yet?” This is how all of your conversations start now ever since she found out that you were pregnant.

“Not yet, I don’t know how. We never just cuddle whilst watching the TV or go out for dinner anymore! I don’t know if he loves me anymore!” You begin to sob.

“He does love you! Next time he says that he is going to go out, stop him and just tell him. The sooner you tell him the better. You cannot wait because soon he will begin to notice.” You hear the door open and quickly hang up the phone. ‘I will explain to Lucy later’ you think as you throw your phone on the sofa. “Ben? You’re back quickly?”

He nods and sits on sofa, “My stuff has been postponed until later on this evening.”

“We were meant to be going out this evening?!” You kind of shout this because you are angry that he keeps cancelling on you.

“Sorry love, I will make it up to you. Promise” He beckons you to sit on the sofa with him. You sit there, with your head buried in his chest. You pick up the remote and turn on some MTV gossip show. The presenter is showing some footage of Jennifer Lawrence tripping over at the Oscars. “That must have been very embarrassing.” The presenter begins to say, “Next we talk about Sherlock actor Benedict Cumberbatch.” You sit up, no longer with your head in his chest. You are eager to know what is about to be said. You peer over at Ben who looks a bit worried but you ignore this and carry on watching.

“As most of you CumberCookies know, a couple of months ago Benedict got married to Stars in her Eyes reporter y/n. But is Mr Cumberbatch being faithful?” You look over at him; he has his head in his hands. “Benedict has just been working on the latest Star Trek film which all you trekkies are looking forward to. The whole time on set he was talking to Zoe Saldana who plays Nyota Uhura. You are now probably thinking ‘well they are just friends’, I am here to disagree. When Benedict returned to the UK so did Zoe. He has only been back a week and there has been photographs taken of them two together every single day. Next we have-” You look at Benedict who is now looking straight at you. ‘Why isn’t he denying it?’ You think as he looks at you. You turn off the TV.

“Well?” You say to him and he just sighs and checks his phone, “Well? Any missed calls from her?!” You shout this and try to restrain the tears which you know are going to fall any moment.

“We are just friends y/n, I promise. She wants to explore London because she is thinking of moving here. I was just showing her around and helping her to find a place to live.” You shake your head, you do not believe it.

“But you have been cancelling everything that we have had planned to do together! You were away for a month and you come back and I feel like we have done nothing together. I knew you were hiding something, you would obviously prefer to spend more time with her than me!” You shout and you are probably being irrational.

“I didn’t tell you because I knew you would just go off on one like this!” He shouts back, you have never heard him shout at you before. So this shocks you a little and the tears begin to fall down your cheeks. “But I am not the only one keeping a secret am I?!” ‘Does he know?’ you think as you look at him, your face shows you are full of questions. “Whenever I return from going out you quickly put the phone down and then throws it onto the sofa. What is that about? Is there a mystery man?” He is angry now, which scares you. It reminds you of your step father as you edge away from him. You are worried that he might hit you.

“No…” you mutter as you back away towards the door. His face is red with anger now and you can feel yourself breathing heavily.

“Then what?!” He is shouting as he walks closer to you.

“I’m pregnant!” You shout as you run out of the door.