Sweet Dreams (Marilyn Manson Love Fanfic)

Chapter 27

Raven's POV

I take a long breath in from my cigarette. I let the ash fall to the floor on the sidewalk. I look down from the balcony I'm on. Newly planted flowers are blooming from the spring. Summer is coming up. It's been about week since I've spoken to Marilyn and I've been staying here at Zim's. They have been very kind to me.

I still feel like I have an empty hole in my chest that Marilyn used to fill. He filled it with happiness and love. Yeah, sounds very 'lovesick teenager' like but it's true. I've never felt so numb and lifeless in so long. Probably since my mom and dad got a divorce. Even then it didnt feel as bad, yeah my family is more important than Marilyn being 'gone' but it feels as if I lost a loved one to death. I've been smoking more and it has only been a week.

I let my cigarette fall to the ground and I stomp on it lightly to put it out. No more sulking, I need to stop letting Brian run through my mind every second. I lean on the rails and watch as Zim and Ash sit together on the swinging bench on their front yard. Ash giggles and kisses him. Zim places his hand over her stomach. I sigh and cover my eyes with my hands. Stop it, stop acting like a lovesick teenager. I walk back inside and stare at my phone once again. I need to see Brian. I miss his ice blue eyes, I miss his laugh, his smile, our physical contact. I grab my phone and shove it in my pocket. I slip on a light sweater and walk downstairs. I walk out to the yard.

"Going on a walk!" I tell them and fake a smile so they won't worry. They nod and tell me to have fun. I walk towards their house hoping and not hoping that I can see Marilyn in the window. Instead of seeing him, which causes a pang of disappointment yet relieved, I see Twiggy playing in the yard. He's playing with Legos and Star Wars action figures. He's such a child, it's cute though. He's like a little boy. He looks up and sees me. He shoots up and runs towards me.

"Raven!" He says and hugs me tightly. After we let go he takes my hand to where he's playing.

"Why are you outside playing?" I ask and fiddle with one of his Legos.

"Marilyn said he's tired of seeing my face so he said to go outside. Then he handed me some toys like I was a child. But I don't mind, I love playing with Legos." I turn and look in every direction to make sure Marilyn isnt in sight. "Don't worry, he won't see you. He has been locked up in the living room drinking for the past days. We don't go to the living room because we don't want to be yelled at by him. He's mean when he's piss drunk." He lifts up his dress revealing a cut. It looks mostly healed though. "He threw a bottle at me and cut me, it was sorta an accident." My eyes widen.

"What?!" I can't believe it! Why would he do such a thing, he was drunk. Drinking alters your mind, right? "What do you mean sorta?" I ask calmly trying not to go straight inside and break Marilyn's jaw.

"He was trying to hurt me but he was really really drunk so he didnt know what he was doing." He says and gives me a weak smile.

"He's still inside?" he nods. "Maybe I should go inside and talk to him, if he's treating you and Ginger like this well...well, that's just not acceptable." I say and stand up.

"Just another reason to talk to him that is." He says and smirks while looking down. I playfully hit his arm.

"Shut up." I say and chuckle. I sit back down. Maybe it isn't such a good idea to see him.

"I thought it wasn't acceptable for him to act like that." He teases. I roll my eyes.

"Whatever." I say and look at the window. I see a figure pass by the window. I quickly turn my head hoping that person didn't see me. "Well, guess I should get going. Tell me if he does that again," I point to his cut. "I don't want him doing that to you. There's no reason for that." I wave bye and leave. On my way there my phone vibrates. I take it out. It's Marilyn. I let out a shaky breath. I press the answer button.

"H-hello?" I say.

"Raven," he sighs. "I miss you." He says sincerely. It has felt like a century from hearing his voice.

"I-I fuck, Brian. I miss you too." I admit. I sit down on the curb and watch the empty calm street.

"I'm sorry, I screwed up so badly. Raven, Im so sorry."

"I know you are."

"Please, let me take you out tonight." I bite my lip. I let out a frustrated sigh.

"I don't know." I say softly. Come on, I know I need him.

"Oh, it's okay, maybe another time." He says with strong disappointment.

"Wait, fine. Fine, alright."

"It doesn't have to be a date." I put my hand on my knee.

"Let's not get into details." I simply say. "Just let it flow without a title."

"I'll be over around seven, if that's alright."

"That's fine." I start to smile.

"Bye, Raveey." He says and chuckles. I blush by him using my nickname. It releases butterflies. I hang up and walk back to Ash's house.

I decide to take a shower. It's early, which is good so I can take my time. I turn on the water and it comes down gracefully. I slip off my clothes and walk in. The warm water drips down my pale skin. My wet hair sticks to my body. The steam dances around the shower room. Showers are so peaceful. The memory from when Marilyn and I were on the tour bus and we took a shower together flashes in my mind. A smile stretches on my face. After washing myself I turn off the water. I blow dry my hair then style it. I do my makeup carefully then get dressed.

I unzip a dark purple dress. I step into it and zip it up. I put on thigh high black socks then black heels. I hear a knock on the door and take a quick and final look in the mirror. I run downstairs. My heels make a clicking sound against the hard wood.

"It's for me!" I yell out and wave my arm. Zim backs away from the door and smiles.

"Have fun, child." He says and pats my shoulder. I roll my eyes and open the door.

"Hi, Raven." Marilyn is dressed rather nicely. He's wearing a buttoned up black dress shirt with skinny black slacks with thick combat boots.

"Hi, Brian." I link out arms together and walk to his car. He opens the car door for me. I slip into the front seat and watch him come around to the drivers seat. He comes inside and smiles at me warmly. We start to drive. I lean on the window and watch as we pass the dim lamp posts. I sit back up. "So, where are we going?"

"Haven't you learned from when we dated that I don't say where we are going." He says and chuckles. I pout and cross my arms. We pull up to a park. There are couples on dates sitting on blankets looking up at the stars. All of them seem to have lanterns.

Marilyn comes around and opens the door for me. He holds out his hand and I take it. We walk to a stand.

"What kind of lantern do you want?" He whispers in my ear.

"That one, please." I point to a purple on that has gold flowers on it. He gets it and a match. We go back to the car and grab a blanket he brought. He sets it down evenly. We sit down and watch the sky. "It's so beautiful, all of the stars." I say and wave my hand to gesture the stars in the sky. He turns to me and smiles. He swipes the match across a hard surface of his boot. He takes my lantern and lights it. It tries to float up but he keeps a grip on it.

"Grab the other side." He says in a soft voice. I curl my fingers on the edge of it. Marilyn and I sit criss cross directly in front of each other. He looks into my eyes and I blush. I look away. I look into the fire that's in the lantern. The flames dance around. Someone starts to yell which startles me. I recognize what he is saying.

"Five, four," everyone joins in his countdown except us. "Two, one!" Marilyn lets go of the lantern and I copy his move. It floats up along with other lanterns. The lanterns join to together and float at different paces. I lay down and Marilyn lays next to me. I giggle from having such a good time. I watch as they keep floating and floating. I then feel Marilyn slide his hand across mine. I entwine our fingers but don't look at him when doing it. I can tell from the corner of my eye that he looks at me and smiles.

Once again Marilyn has me in love with him.

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