Dear my lovely bully (pasteltomxbullytord)

14

Tom pov.
I walked throw the memory of my past child hood. Some doors were locket and other we're open i walked at the a open one showing a happy memory edd, matt, tord, and I we're playing tag with one another. As edd was runing he tripped and fell scraping his knee. I walked over to him as he started crying. I pulled out a band-Aid from my blue pocket and but it on and kissed it. We we're happy again.
I closed that door and open the next one. It showed 6 year okd me helping my mother bake cookies . After a while my alcohol step father came in and started to beat my mother and scream at her. After a while he passed out on the couch and i ran to my crying mother. I sat in her lap as she rocked me back-and-forth Singing a lullaby i knew to well.  I played with her hair as he picked me up and walked to my room closing the door and putting a chair against it. She laid down next to me. I hugged her and she hugged back falling asleep like that. I kept walking into i come to the last door it open on it's on pulling me throw. I walked throw a grass field full of beautiful flowers mostly white and golden ones. I looked out to see a gazebo with vines with rose on it and the white wood was chipped from it being old . Then i walked a little closer to see Tord standing it in. His hair is all brushed and nicely done , a black Texido with a white under shirt, and a red rose in his pocket. I had an white dress on with paste blue flowers on it, my head had a pastel blue rose with little white flowers on it, and white ribbon rapped around my arms.
Is.... its this what was my wedding day was going to look like. I looked up once more and started to run to Tord wishing i wasn't dead yet. The outfit started to disappear from my body and into the clothes i died in. The ground started to pull me in as i it turn to a black liquid. Tord looked down straight at me with an white outline, red eyes. After that I woke up in other field. This time it was dead and the sun was black.
I walked around and found dead rabbits and a tree instead of an gazebo. I walked up to it seeing myself hanging from it. One million word written on the tree. Blood started to leek from the black holes i call eyes. I started to be pushed away from it to a cliff. I sat down close to the edge hanging my feet off it. I knew this cliff well. Tord took my on a date here. Will more of a way to get picture showing that i was gay and other time when my mother would take us here to get away. I pulled out the little flowers on the ground and made a flower crown. I looked at to see an angry Devil and god . They looked at each other and pushed me off. I feel back into the world. But i wasn't alive.
God and satan give me a punishment. It was to watch me suffer as everyone is happy without me.