Dear my lovely bully (pasteltomxbullytord)

5

Tord pov

I woke up and looked at the window. Was he ok? pulled out my phone to see if anyone was up once I did I got a text from Paul.
Paul: hey
Tord: Hello Paul
Paul: what are you doing
Tord: nothing just getting ready for school.
I got to tom number if he still had it.
Tord: Tommy wake up
Tom: what time is it.
Tord: 6:00
Tom: ok thanks
Pov
I got up and gabbed my clothes and went into the bathroom. I started the water and got in. I started cleaning myself. After a little, I got out of the shower and started getting dressed. I but on a pink shirt with an alien on the corner and black outline on it, black shorts with rips in them, a black beanie with the words ugly on it, and a plain black choker. I walked down stairs and but on my Black converse. I skipped breakfast and left to walk to school this time. It was a really nice morning. The sun was shining. And cause I didn't want to take the bus. I walked the whole way to school. I walked to my locker.
Tord pov:
I was at school.
I went to my girlfriend and my friends. then my girlfriend came over to me and kissed me. I kissed back. I hold her close. But I didn't feel right. The day went by it was launch. Tom sat alone like away. I watched as a group of boys walked over to him.
Tom pov:
I looked at the 9 boys at my table.
"Hi?"
"What up hoe"
"So we were wounding if you would like to have fun after school"
" no"
The boys looked at me getting angrier by every Second.
They grabbed my shirt and bulled me off the ground.
I looked at them getting scared. He then throws me to the ground. After that, his group picked me up and went to take off my shirt. I stepped away and they pulled it off.
"Everyone come see this"
Everyone surrounded me and pointed at my cuts and my cave in the stomach  and just laughed at me.
I looked down at the ground not bothering looking at them or me.
Tord pov
The bell ringed telling the kids to leave. Tom got up and ran out. I saw him running away to go somewhere. I ran after him and pulled him back giving him a hug and a peek his lips.
"How do you even stand to look at me"
Tears ran down my eye and I looked at him.
"Cause your Beautiful"
We walked to tom locker and he put his homework and drawing book in is pastel blue book bag. We walked to the bus. Tom pulled out his phone and played a song he liked by daughter. Tom like daughter, mother mother, black bear, the hush sound, Jon ballotine, glasses animal, Gorillaz, cavetown, Regina Spektor, Nicole dollanganger, troye Sivan, oh wonder, and other shit like that.

I got on the bus and talked to Paul.

-tom pov-

N/A I'm sorry there is child abuse and rape if you do not wish to read this just skip the rest of this chapter. You have been warned.

I got off the bus after getting bully even more. I walked out into a field filled with white flower's and the sky was cloudy and it looked like it was going to rain. But the rain was good. I would rather have it rain than anything. After a while, I got up and went to what I call home. I open the door and walked in quietly smelling what I would call my childhood. Something that will never be gone. I was hoping he was asleep but I was wrong. He and his friends were waiting for me. I walked in getting scared and started to shake out of fear.
"where the fuck have you been you should have been here 30 minutes ago"
"The bus broke down"
"So that doesn't mean you can be fucking late you piece of shit"
"I-i didn't mean to they wouldn't let me off"
"O -hiccup- k boy go have fun with him I don't care what you do just make it pain full"

I looked at the men that came over to me. Then I looked over at my dad. He was making out with a bitch. It disgusted me. One of the men picked me up and slammed me into the ground. Mt back hurt like hell. I went to get up but I kicked me down. One of them came up with an evil idea. He walked over to me and pulled down his pants and then his underwear. He pushed this dick in my face.
"Suck it you little slut"
I moved my face away to not come near it. He slapped me and then grabbed my hair pushing my face closer to it and butting it in my mouth. He started moving my head up and down. I saw crying and moaning at the same time. After a little me cum in my mouth. The other two that were there got mad at the fact the only one of them got to have fun. They both came over to me and one started tacking off my clothes and the other came behind me. Once I had my clothes off they pulled down there and looked at me. They both pushed there dicks in me and thrusting in and out of me at once. The third one but his dick in my mouth again the shut me up.
After an hour they stopped and got dressed and left. I got up had to limp towards the bathroom. Pain shot up my body as I got into the tub. I turned on the water
And but something down the drain to stop the water for going down it. I but bubble into the water and sat down in it. I started crying. I feel so disgusting. I lay down in the water and push my face under. All the air leaving my body left wonderful. I soon heard my phone go off. I push myself out and looked at it. It was a text from tord. How did he get my under. Then I reminder they went throw my phone one day and stole it to text me over and over about how worthless I was.
Tord: tom are you ok
Tord: tom plz text back
Tord: plz let me know if you're ok

I picked up my phone and started texting him

Tom: Yeah I'm fine just leave me alone for a little
Tord: ok just don't do anything to hurt yourself ok tom

Tom: ok
I lie .i lied to him I lied to my mom. I lied to everyone.
I open a drawer pulled out a razor. I looked at my arm to see my old cut and my new ones. I put the razor up to my skin arm. I started cutting and naming all the reasons why I was cutting. the last one I said with so much anger. I pushed the razor deeper. I didn't care. I stop crying, I stop feeling at all.
After a little, I watched my arms and my mouth out. I wrapped up my arm. And but on a towel and walked to my room to get dressed. I but on underwear than a blue sweatshirt on. It still smells like him. I snuggled into the sweatshirt and hold tommie bear close to me.
"tommie bear promise me never to leave me"

Tommie bear just looked at me. I hugged him.

Monster"

Fucking freak"

No one loves you"

No wonder your mom dies"

Just die"

You're ugly"

Too skinny"

Even the teacher hates you what a pity

Just go kill yourself"

All the pain came back. All the times I got beat up. Everything came back. I felt empty. Nothing. The darkness in my room seemed to get bigger and bigger. I close my eyes and went to sleep.
My dreams were usually dark. But this time I was in a Field. Wearing a pastel blue kimono, pastel blue shorts, with a white shirt that is tucked into the shorts, and dreamcatcher with pastel blue feathers and a golden chain that hooked to the dreamcatcher making it a neckless. I looked at the sky it was pastel pink mixed with pastel purple. I looked at the tree and there was a rope tied to it. The next thing tord is there. He comes close to me and cups my face. He came close to my ear and started taking.
"Even when you're gone I will away miss you"
Tears were going down my face and he pulled away from my faces. He leads in and kissed me. I kiss back. He pulled away and we just laid on the ground.