Why | EXO

I Wonder If You Hurt Like Me

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Bangtan Boys, BTS, they have so much love and pureness in their hearts. I hope they stay together for as long as they can. 

I envy them. 

They can live a scandal-free life while we're here drowning in them.

It's nice.

-Exoplanet #2, The EXO'luXion in Los Angeles, 18:30 PST, February 14, 2016-

We're performing today, I'm excited for everyone, I really am.

"Sehunnie! You excited to perform?"

"Yeah, let's do it!" I laughed along with Yixing, he's been helping me a lot lately.

I'm trying to move on, it's kind of working, my mental state is better than it was.

"That's the spirit! Can we talk after the concert though? It's important." Please don't leave.

"Yeah, of course. We can't talk now, though?"

"No, it has to be in private and we're kind of about to go on stage."

"Okay, yeah sure. We'll get something to eat after then."

"Sounds like a plan! Now let's go my tall maknae!" I smiled and laughed.

-After, In Sehun and Suho's Room-

"What did you want to talk about?" Is it what you and Suho were talking about the other day. Don't worry, I know. 

"Suho and I, we heard you."

"I know."

"You know?"

"Yeah, I know about everything."

"Are you okay? You can come to China with me if you want, we can schedule something, close some doors."

"I'm fine. They wouldn't let me do anything anyways, no one cares."

"Don't say that! Everyone cares, Sehun, trust me."

"Why should I trust you, you might leave soon, too."

"I don't plan on leaving nor do I want to."

"Liar, you're all liars. Everyone in EXO is a liar, everyone in this stupid company is a liar."

"Sehun, I'm warning you. Stop talking."

"No, why should I? Do you want me to pretend like nothing happened? Like the love of my life didn't leave and take my sanity with him?"

"Sehun, that's not what I meant! I was only saying-"

"No! You're all going to leave one day! You'll leave and take everything away!"

"Sehun, stop!" He grabbed my hands, I tried to yank them away but I'm not as strong as him.

"Leave me alone! I'll just make it easier on you, how about that?"

"Sehun, come here!"

"Go, leave! You guys just hate me anyways!" I'm all over the place.

I can hear doors open.

"We never said that! Listen to me-" Yixing starts pulling me towards him, I want to go.

"I refuse, I will never listen, I'm going to disappear and you will never hear from me." Again, I'm all over the place.

I start trying to get away, causing my feet to slide on the floor as I try to gain balance over him.

"Sehun, it's okay." Chanyeol hugs me tight, he's about the same height as me but a lot stronger than anyone here.

"No!" I start screaming my lungs out and trash around. That's all I remember.

-Minseok POV-

It's about time he's snapped. I've been watching him just like Lu Han told me to. He gets worse every day according to the notes I have.

I just stare at the body of an innocent person.

That person who was slowly destroyed in the hands of the world.

"Let him go, I'll handle this."

"I hope you don't take any offense to this, but he doesn't really like you right now."

"It's okay, I learned how to handle him from the best."

I kneeled down as I watched Sehun cry his heart out, I watched him scream to the world like it was no big deal. 

His eyes were bloodshot, nose runny, his stance was like he was get up and spring out of the house.

His eyes cried misery and despair, his nose was red like the anger in his heart, his stance was the interpretation of betrayal at its best. 

We did this to him, didn't we?

"Sehun, I know you want to run, you probably hate us with burning passion but I promise you it's going to get better."

"It's not, I don't care what you tell me, I'll never believe in you nor will I ever trust any one of you."

"You don't have to, but what you can do is believe in yourself."

"Not even me." He glared with pure hatred.

"Then do it for Lu Han." The tension rose to the sky and shook hands with the sun.

He stayed silent and curled up, I leaned over and put his head on my lap, letting him lay there.

-Later That Night-

He's finally asleep.

His breakdown is over and everyone is still surrounding him.

"Guys, how about you all go to your rooms, if he wakes up he'll be overwhelmed." Suho tries to usher everyone out but their stubborn butts stay glued.

"Fine, but he's gonna be on the bed." Chanyeol got up and put the sleepy Sehun on his unusually small bed.

And that was the night everyone stayed in a cramped room for the youngest.

-Next Day Sehun POV-

I wake up only to be surrounded by my stinky members who didn't even bother to lay down properly.

Baekhyun and Kai are cemented to my side. Suho and Yixing are asleep in the next bed, and Chen is sleeping on the floor next to him.

Kyungsoo and Xiumin are cramped together on the futon we had stored in the closet. Chanyeol stays in a ball in the very corner of the room.

"What happened?" I like to whisper to myself, it's nice and comforting for some reason.

"Lu Han, if you somehow saw what happened please tell me, I don't deserve these dorks. I don't even deserve to be here. I'm just an untalented, lanky 20 something year old."

"How can you speak so lowly of yourself like that? Sehun, get your shit together or you're never going to last with me. C'mon, believe in yourself like the three of us did! Love yourself like I love you."

I'm hallucinating, nice.

"I'm serious, ask yourself, would I like you if you came to me like this?"

Not really.

"Exactly! Now stop imagining me."

"Sehun, how are you feeling?" It's Yixing.

"Good I guess, I have a headache and have two koalas pasted onto me."

"Hmm, what's the last thing you remember?"

"Well I was trashing around and Chanyeol hugs me, that's all I remember."

"I see, well how about we sneak out of here and get that food you wanted from yesterday? They'll forgive us later." I smiled and nodded, anything to get out of this place.

Lulu, I wonder how you are. Are you okay?

I wonder if you hurt like my demolished heart.