Why | EXO

Destiny

-May 28, 2016-

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I left EXO.

It would be a lot calmer.

No more horrible thoughts, no more disappointment, no more heartbreak.

"Sehun, it's time."

"I'll be there in a minute."

"I'm sorry, but we don't have a minute."

"...Okay."

-May 31, 2016-

I think I have a free day today, some of the members are doing their own schedules.

It's nice to just be relaxing even if we have a few hours.

-Yixing's POV-

"You have no right in coming here."

"Please, I just want to talk for a moment."

"No, fuck you. Get out before I kick your ass."

"First of all, watch your damn language."

"Like you should be talking."

"Whatever, I still need to talk to you about something."

"Something or someone? If this is about Sehun I'm not saying a single thing. He's been trying to reach you for the past- you know what, you don't need to know."

"I gave Chen my new number, I thought he gave it to him..."

"See, that's where you mess up. You gave it to the person that kind of hates more than everyone else."

"He... hates me?"

"I'm sorry, but yeah, he does. I know Jongdae tries to be nice to everyone but when it comes down to people he cares about, he changes."

Lu Han looked down at the floor, I think he feels as he reached a whole new level of low.

Where the kindest, friendliest person in the world dislikes him.

"I didn't mean for anything like this to happen, I just wanted to see my family, live my life... I didn't know it would cost my only friends..."

I felt bad for him at that moment, but at the same time, I didn't.

I sighed.

"If you want, I'll text Sehun your new number, I promise." He smiled and wrote down his number on my hand, great."

"I hope you'll do well on your show tonight, I'll be watching!"

-Sehun's POV-

Chanyeol is singing, his voice is almost as beautiful as Lu Han's.

One day, I pray that I see Lu Han, I pray that I'll be able to see his pink lips, his pale, exquisite skin, his engaging silky, smooth hair.

I miss his laughs, I miss his small insults at other members, I miss his arresting laugh, I miss it all.

I miss his adorable interactions with the other members, I miss him.

I don't know how I got from Chanyeol's singing to Lu Han's features.

I'm really messed up.

I need help.

"Sehun, I-I didn't know you were there."

"Sorry, I didn't mean to interrupt you, I'll just leave."

"No! Stay, I could use some advice."

"From me? No way, I don't know anything-"

"It's okay, I don't either, I learn by ear, remember?" I do remember. Such a talented human being and he's still clueless.

I sit down next to him, staring at his slender fingers glide through the strings of the instrument. Park Chanyeol is... stunning... winsome... I don't know why he's at SM Entertainment when he can make more and be more without us.

"Can I ask you something?"

"Of course, anything for you."

"Why are you here? You would be better off solo than to be dragged down in this group." He looked surprised, I shouldn't have asked.

"I'd rather be part of a group than to be glamorous, sure I could be going solo, but I'd rather have more experiences with friends than by myself."

I definitely shouldn't have asked that.

"I'm sorry... I don't know why I asked that."

"It's okay, you were just curious, how are you by the way?" He squeezed my shoulder and looked at me straight in the eye.

"I've been better. How is it with Kyungsoo and Baekhyun?" I choked on some words, he just kept staring so intensely.

He chuckled, his deep voice was cloaked in exhaustion.

"They turned their backs on me, I feel like my world is crashing down, to be honest."

"I see, Baekhyun has been hanging out with him more."

"Yeah, this group isn't going to last long is it?" My mouth formed a tight line, I didn't know what to say.

"I don't know, I hope we last the longest. Even if we have our ups and downs, I hope we one day become like Shinhwa." He smiled and put his guitar down, I feel like I should be getting prepared for something.

"Keep me company for a couple of days, I'll ask Suho to switch rooms with me, it'll be nice, you know?" I've been asked this too many times. I couldn't bring myself to say no, so I nodded.

"Thanks, I hope we bond more." I don't feel safe, I shouldn't feel this way.

Is this going to be my destiny?

Am I supposed to be passed around and betrayed in a single second?