Ashton:
You know the only real way to cure pain is to add a little more, because everything new distracts the old
You sat on the bathroom floor with tears in your eyes. You had your back against the locked door and the shower running to make it seem like that’s what you were doing. You shakily open the cabinet below the sink and feel around the top of it until you find what you were looking for. You untapped the razor blade and hold in tight between your thumb and pointer finger. You examine it closely with your flooded eyes before bringing it down to your wrist. The memories of all the things Ash’s fans had said to you come rushing to your mind. “You don’t deserve him.” You whisper to yourself as you run the blade across your wrist. You whimper a bit as your skin tears open. “He doesn’t love you.” You say a bit louder as you cut yourself once more. And then again. Then again. Just as you were about to do it again, there was a knocking at the door. You jump a little, causing you to hit your head off the door. “Y/n… What are you doing in there? Unlock the door.” Ashton says as he jiggles the doorknob. Your eyes grow wide as you stand up and step away from the door. “I- I was uh, I just ran out of shampoo and I was looking for more.” You say stutteringly. “I just bought shampoo, stop lying to me. You aren’t doing it again are you?” Ashton says through the door. “Shit.” You mumble to yourself as you quickly undress. You quietly get into the shower just enough to get you wet and you rinse out your cuts, making you hiss a little. “Y/n?” You hear Ashton yell through the door, jiggling at the knob more. “Y/n, why aren’t you answering me?” He asks with a shaky voice. You rapidly hop out of the shower and cover yourself in a towel. You walk over to the door and unlock it, Ashton immediately opening it. “Motherfucker!” Ashton yells, grabbing his bare foot in his hand. “Oh my god Ash, are you okay?” You ask, scared. He examines the floor and soon bends down to pick something up. He comes back up with the blade in his hands and tears forming in his eyes. He sits it down on the sink and grabs your wrist. “Why are you doing this again?” He asks sounding angry. You sniffle before answering, “It makes me forget about all the other bad things.” Ash lets go of your wrist and looks down at the floor. “What ‘other bad things’?” He asks. “The things I get told everyday for being with you!” You say, raising your voice. Ashton swallows hard before looking into your bloodshot eyes. “Stop doing this.” He says getting angry with you. “I’m gonna do whatever it takes to distract me from what they say.” You say before storming out of the bathroom and locking yourself in your guy’s bedroom. “Y/n!” Ashton yells, but you ignore. You simply just lay on the bed still wet and wrapped in a towel and let the tears fall.
Calum:
Go down your list and be satisfied if all you have is not enough
You were watching TV while waiting for Calum to get home from the studio. You were about to text him to see when he’d be back when the door swung open and then got slammed shut again. “Hey Cal.” You say looking back at him from the couch. He simply ignores you and goes to the bedroom. You roll your eyes and sigh at his behavior. He has been acting this way for awhile now, and every time you try to ask him about it, he just gets angry and storms off. But today you were determined to get to the bottom of it. “Calum, why’d you ignore me?” You ask annoyed after entering the bedroom behind him. “Jesus, am I not allowed having one bad day?” He says not looking at you. “No, but you aren’t allowed to have 10 in a row and not tell me why!” You yell. Calum quickly turns around to face you and shoots you daggers. “Have you ever thought that maybe you’re the reason why I’m in such a shitty mood?” Your mouth gapes open as he says this because you can’t think of any reason why he’d be mad at you. “You’re always complaining about how I’m never around as if it’s my fault. God, I even brought you here so I’d at least be around but you’re still not satisfied. You’re never fucking satisfied!” He adds on. “Well I’m sorry for wanting to spend time with my boyfriend!” You shoot back. He chuckles at this. “Whenever I do spend time with you, all you do is complaining about how I’m never around and how you wish I didn’t have this job! You’re so selfish y/n!” He yells as you’re taken aback. Your eyes start to fill with tears.
“Maybe I should just leave then.” You say a bit more quiet. “There’s the door.” Calum says immediately, motioning to the exit. “Calum…” You say in a hushed tone before getting interrupted, “I just need some time alone y/n. It’s not like I meant anything to you, I’m never good enough.” He says in a tough tone. You shake your head and walk right out the door. “Goodbye Calum.” You whisper to yourself as you step out of the door with tears in your eyes.
