Ashton:
Once the tears stopped flowing out of your eyes, you got up. You dried yourself off and put on some pajamas. Ashton stopped knocking on the door about a half hour ago so you figured he was watching TV or something. You walk over to the bedroom door and open it only to be met with Ashton’s bloodshot eyes. “Ash…” “No y/n, listen. I’m sorry that I got angry with you. It’s just that I hate seeing you do things like this to yourself, especially because it’s my fault.” He looks down at the floor and lets a tear fall from his right eye. You shake your head. “No Ash it isn’t your fault.” You say, throwing your arms around him and pulling him in for a hug. “Yes it is y/n. If it wasn’t for me then none of this would be happening.” He says in your ear. He slowly pulls away. “C-can I see your wrist?” You swallow hard before slowly raising your wrist to his large hand. “Hold on…” Ash says as he walks over to a drawer at his desk. He pulls out a sharpie and walks back over to you. He grabs your wrist and starts to scribble something on it. “There. Now whenever you want to hurt yourself just remember how much it’ll hurt me too.” You examine your wrist to see that Ashton drew a little cartoon him on your wrist. You giggle at him while looking at it. “Thank you Ash. I’ll try to remember this.” You say before giving him a kiss and pulling him in for another hug. “I’m sorry for blocking you out.” You add. Ashton just pulls you closer in response and places a kiss on your temple. “I love you.” You whisper to him before he whispers it back. You two just stay standing there in each other’s arms, wishing that moment would never end.
Calum:
It had been 2 weeks since you talked to Calum. You’ve been staying at a hotel near where Calum is staying. You occasionally try to call him, but he never picks up. You were furious to say the least. You hated how he could just drop you like this after all you two have been through. Today you decided that you’ve had enough and decided to go by where he’s staying. You stand awkwardly at the door trying to think of what you’ll say to him. “Fuck it.” You say before knocking harshly on the door. “Coming!” You hear one of the boys yell from inside. Soon the door swings open to a happy Ashton. His smile soon fades as he sees you. “Can you please get Calum?” You ask. Ashton looks back into the house and then back at you. He doesn’t say anything but walks outside and pulls the door shut behind him. “What are you doing?” You ask irritated. “Y/n I’m not letting you go in there.” He says. You get confused by this, wondering why he doesn’t want you to see him. “Ashton just let me go in. I have to talk to Cal.” You say trying to push your way past him. “No y/n, trust me on this one.” Ash says grabbing your arm to stop you. You simply shake his hand off and open the door to go in. “Calum!” You yell. “Y/n seriously.” Ashton says coming in from outside. Calum walks towards where you’re standing with a confused look. “What are you doing here?” He asks harshly. “We need to talk about this Calum.” You say, crossing your arms. “Y/n, I uh…” He begins before a skinny blonde girl walks into the room in a robe. “Calum, what’s taking so long?” She asks him, “Who’s this?” “I could ask the same question.” You say to him. “I’m his girlfriend.” The blonde says. Your mouth opens wide along with your eyes as she says this. “Y/n, i-.” Calum begins before you start shaking your head. “Now I get what happened. I’m glad you’re enjoying your alone time.” You say before pushing past Ashton to the door. “Y/n I’m so sorry.” Ashton says as you leave, trying to follow. “It wasn’t your fault, but thank you. Goodbye Ash.” You say before turning around to never look back.
Luke:
You were slumped on the couch with a tub of ice cream. You’ve pretty much been this way since Luke left. You guys haven’t talked since he left, no calls, texts, nothing. It was killing you to not see him. You shoveled a spoonful of ice cream into your mouth as you turned on the TV. You scanned through the channels before there was a knock at your door. You sighed as you got up and walked to the door. You opened it up only to see Luke standing there with his hands behind his back. “Can I come in?” He asks. You motion for him to continue in as he does so. You close the door than turn around to see him holding a bouquet of flowers. You smile slightly at his gesture before taking them and sitting them on a table. “I’m sorry y/n.” Luke says, breaking the silence. “I am too.” You say in response. “No, I shouldn’t have made it about me. I should’ve just made you feel better instead of making you feel worse.” He says. “Yeah, but you were right. I never ask about you or the hate you get. And I’m sorry about that.” You say to him. “Wow we’re horrible.” He says with a chuckle. You laugh at this while walking over to him. “I love you.” He says as he reaches out and grabs both of your hands in his. “I love you too.” You say, “And I missed you.” Luke chuckles, “I missed you too.” Luke then pulled you close to him and kissed you passionately. Once you two pulled away, he dragged you to the couch by your hands and you two spent the rest of the night cuddling and eating ice cream.
Michael:
{Your POV}
I woke up in a weird room that smelled like lemon air freshener. My entire body aches and I don’t know why, aren’t I supposed to be dead? Doesn’t that fix all of the pain? I lift up my head slightly and look around the room to see that I’m in a hospital. “Y/n???” I hear Michael say from across the room. I look over at him and he comes running towards me. “Why are you here? What happened?” I ask him. His eyes are bloodshot and tears are still streaming down his face. His eyes always look so gorgeous like this, the way they glisten with tears in them. “Y/n you almost left me for good. I found you in your hotel room covered in cuts and blood and you were unconscious.” He tells me. “So I’m alive?” I ask him genuinely confused. “Yes, y/n, you’re alive and thank god that you are.” He says, grabbing my hand. He was shaking like crazy. “Y/n… Why did you have a gun in your room?” He asks me. “Because I’m dumb.” I say with a giggle as I feel myself falling asleep again. “Are you okay y/n?” Michael asks me, shaking my body. “Yes, but I don’t want to be.” I say. He gives me a confused look. “I love you so much y/n and I don’t know what I would do if you were gone right now. Please stop thinking that way.” Michael says, sounding like he’s begging. “I love you too Michael but I don’t love myself. And my family doesn’t love me either. If I wasn’t here it’d only affect your life.” I tell him. He starts shaking his head so hard that it looks like it might fall off. “What about the fans? The other guys? All of your friends?” He says. “I don’t matter to them.” I say. “But you do matter to me and if you love me then please don’t hurt me by doing things like this.” He says. I hate seeing him so concerned and scared, like his life could end at any moment. It frightens me to think that he probably sees me like that all the time. I don’t want him to look at me and feel like this. “I love you so much Michael. You’re the only reason I’m alive. So maybe it’s for a reason.” I say more to myself than to him. “Yes y/n! It is for a reason! Please don’t try anything like this ever again okay? Promise me right now.” He says, holding out his pinkie like he always does when we make promises. I stick my pinkie out to lock with his. “I promise.” His eyes light up as I say this, and my entire body gets butterflies. As long as I have him, I have a reason to keep trying. So that’s what I’ll do. “Thank you so much Michael.” I say as he smiles at me. “No… Thank you for not giving up.” He says to me. I smile weakly at him before he leaves to get a doctor. Maybe there actually is something to live for…
