Wake up
Shower
School/work
Shower
Sleep
Everyday.
You wake up so early your eyes burn and your brain is screaming murder.
You get ready for school/work trying to maintain the same style and look so you don't seem as though you've given up, but aren't raising anyone's expectations for you.
You Take a 15-30 minutes shower to avoid waking up any earlier, because any earlier then 6 is begging your brain to melt out of your ears.
You skip breakfast because it makes you nauseous to eat so early, or maybe you wanna lose weight, or maybe you just don't feel the strength in your body or eyelids to put together a bowl of cereal.
You go to school/work and pray to every God you know that you won't fall asleep today. And then you get home and pretty much the whole day is wasted in a place you don't want to go so that's always fun.
You take another shower to wash the memories of that day off your body and also the weird public building smell.
You curl up in bed ready to close your eyes and enter your temporary coma and then you realize, "I don't want to go to sleep. I haven't checked social media." So you check instagram, snapchat, tumbler, pintrest, YouTube, tinder, and then end up adding a new book or seven to your library "for tomorrow" and then, 27 chapters into the first one you notice that it's oddly bright in your room.
Congratulations, you stayed up until 6 a.m. and now have to go face the day with 0% battery on your life, but hey at least your phone is at 100%.
YOU ARE READING
empty nights
Poetrythis is what's really happening behind your bedroom door, what you feel but can't express without being seen as strange. don't worry, cause darlin I'm a mess too.
