Blackout [lashton]

Chapter 8

The next three weeks went by slowly as they all prepared to go to Spain. Luke and Ashton hadn't even slept in the same bed since that night, much less kiss. Both of them were aching for the other one, but neither would acknowledge it. The more Luke fell for Ashton, the more he tried to convince himself that he was straight.

So they were all sitting in starbucks, planning their trip. They would have a lot of time to just wander the city of Madrid, thankfully, so they were planning what to do when a short girl with long blonde hair walked over to Luke.

"Hey Luke, I'm Bethany." She smiled and said, "so I heard you're a pretty good actor."

"I'm decent." Luke said slowly, confused. Bethany clearly mistook that for flirting, so she lightly touched his shoulder and smiled.

"I was wondering if you could help me for drama class? It's just this one scene I'm having a lot of trouble." She smiled, blinking flirtily.

Her flirtyness was lost on Luke, who smiled and said "sure! Do you want to go now?"

The girl nodded and they walked out of the starbucks together. Michael and Calum glanced at eachother with wide eyes.

"Dude, Luke's going to get laid." Calum said softly, eyeing Ashton carefully.

"No he's not!" Ashton said quickly, then widened his eyes in fear.

Michael raised his eyebrows at Ashton, who looked terrified.

"Dude, he's totally going to bang." Calum said, sipping his coffee.

"But- but I thought-" Ashton had thought that Luke had actually liked him, maybe even more than a friend.

"Evidently not." Michael chimed in.

"Fuck." Ashton whispered. "I have to go."

Luke was in his bed, making out with Bethany, her script abandoned on the floor. They had gotten to a kissing bit and she had just attacked him. Luke supposed anyone else would enjoy having a pretty blonde on top of them, but Luke couldn't help imagining Ashton in her place.

She tried to take off his shirt, and that's what snapped him out of it. He resisted her grip until she said ,"what? You gay or something?"

That's when Luke removed his shirt, and she removed her own. And then Luke tried to forget.

Ashton ran up the stairs after stopping to buy Advil. He rememebered how Luke was going to pick some up before Spain, and he decided to help him out.

When he got to the room, he unlocked it to find Luke in his bed, almost naked, with Bethany on top of him. Luke made eye contact with Ashton and shoved bethany off.

But it was too late. Ashton felt his heart shatter into a thousand pieces.

"Ashton-" Luke started, but Ashton was already starting to leave.

"What Luke? You're going to hurt me again?" Ashton cried, tears streaming down his face. "As if four years of high school wasen't enough?"

"I'm going to go." Bethany said, pulling on her dress. "Call me." She kissed Luke on the cheek and walked out the door.

Ashton clenched his jaw and stared at Luke, who was still shirtless.

"Ashy, I- I think I-" Ashton could see the tears in Luke's eyes.

"Don't 'ashy' me, you dick. I'm leaving, and you better not even think about cutting yourself for me, you coward." Ashton said coldly, and turned to the door. "Here's your damn Advil." He threw the bag at Luke's feet and slammed the door.

Ashton was walking out the door when Michael and Calum met up with him.

"Where are you going? It's almost lock down time." Calum said, then noticed Ashton's puffy eyes and red nose.

"Can- can I stay with you tonight?" He asked, trying not to cry. Calum hugged him tightly.

"Of course." Michael hugged him too before saying "but right now we need to get into our rooms. Get your shit, and get your stuff for Spain too. We leave tommorow at 5 am."

Ashton groaned and walked into his room, somewhat slowly.

Inside his room, luke was sitting on his own bed, rolling the Advil bottle in his hands. After seeing ashton, he set the bottle on the bed and stood up.

"Ashton, I'm so sorry, and I really need to tell you something." Luke got up and grabbed Ashton's arm.

"Let go of me! Haven't you done enough? I just want to get to Spain and then never see your sorry ass again." Ashton said, tears building up.

Luke felt tears prick behind his eyes and he opened his mouth to say something, "Ashton, I think I-"

"I'm leaving." Ashton set his jaw and grabbed his suitcase. "From now on, we're only dorm mates." He then slammed the door and walked into Calums room.

"Yo! Ash!" Luke heard Calum say from next door. "Room assignments for Spain go up soon!"

Luke was standing in the middle of their room, fingers twitching with every tear that dropped. He was wearing Ashton's purple nyu sweatshirt he hadn't bothered to return, and it smelled like happiness and cologne. It was soft and worn, and it made Luke feel safe.

"I think I love you, Ashton." Luke muttered, staring at the closed door.

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Lmao I was super motivated to write this, so you get 2 in one day!

I know a lot of wattpadders will only update of they get x amount of votes, but I write for fun, and I just like to enjoy myself, so I will never do that. Just a PSA.

Also, this chapter was depressing. Sorry not sorry.

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