Rules Of Attraction (Phan) (Without Trilogy Part III)

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Hey, Dan.

Phil. When we were rehearsing, that
big scene you were supposed to do with Jade,
and I kissed you, did you...you know, hate it?

It wasn't...a bad kiss, I guess.

But do you regret it? Did it make you question
your sexuality in the wrong way?

No, not at-oh, my God. Dan, are you straight
now?

No. What? Never. I just...God, I feel like
such an idiot.

Why? It was in the script.

Yeah, but...but I liked it. And I like you. And
then Jade said some things earlier, and I
know it's probably not true because why
would you, the universe's fucking gift
to mankind, ever love the universe's mistake...

But then what if you did? What if she was
telling the truth, and I never acted on what
she said, just because I was scared? Because,
God, Phil, I love our friendship. I love reading
together and pizza for Christmas dinner
and simultaneously bawling our eyes out
after Merlin. I love us. But mostly I love
you, and how you make all those moments,
because alone they just wouldn't be the same.

They'd be rather depressing, actually.

Exactly! And I'm a mistake, but...that doesn't
mean I have to make this one.

"Dan?" Phil looked at him questioningly, like he was still trying to process everything that he had said. Which was good, because it gave Dan time to think, and, if needed, time to run. So, for one last moment, Dan tried to memorize his friend's face, already saddened by the almost memory-like thought of Phil's features slipping away like mist...his crooked nose, the bright blue of his eyes. The sharp angles of his face, but the gentle curve of his smile.

There was just one last thing Dan wanted to know.

He'd stepped closer to Phil during his little speech, not unwittingly. He'd planned the whole thing, strange as it may seem, while he was sprinting back to the apartment. Back home.

And so, never one to procrastinate, except on literally everything he ever did, ever, Dan kissed him. Just a peck-soft, gentle, quick, barely a kiss, much like the one they'd shared while "rehearsing" . But still enough that stars burst inside of Phil's stomach, and panic set into Dan's.

What. Had. He. Done.

With one last look at his friend, Dan turned on his heel and left.

He was a procrastinator. This could be dealt with later, right?