Worth

Seeing Red

i woke up surprisingly early.The sun was beginning to peak through the curtain shinning in my room.The room was surprisingly warm unlike its usual freezing temperatures.I looked at the clock next to my bed:9:40.Yet another day of school missed and uncompleted work added on to my usual large amounts.I sighed and waited for doctors to tell me what is planned for my day.i thought about asher.hes probably wondering where i am.I hate having to lie to him.I fear if i tell him about my condition and how dangerous i am he might be scared of me.I love him too much to lose him.

"Good morning Miss Fields.You are free to go home but we have to give you a strong medication.It may help with the mood swings"Doctor Taylor said

i smiled."will it help with the flashbacks?"

He frowned"i dont think there is anything to stop flashbacks"Great.that was the thing that cause most of my problems."ok" i said.I got up and went to the bathroom to get my clothes on.Thankfully my dad left me some clothes. i walked into the bathroom and slipped on my jeans and my shirt.i walked out and went into the hospital waiting area until my dad arrived

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i got home and laid on my bed.my dad was acting..strange.He wasnt his happy warm self.He gave off a cold scary vive.I didnt think too much of it.I sat at my desk ready to do the work i never touched.i texted asher to get my work for me.He asked where i was and i didnt respond.im thinking about how i would tell him something like this.."The girl youve been dating for 2 years has a disorder that makes her dangerous",My phone suddenly started vibrating.It was Victoria one of my best friends.i smiled and anwered my phone.

"Hey tori"i said.Tori was on of the only people in this world i trust with my secret.But i have to lie to her as well.

"Hey Harm!Your babe was looking for you today.Where were you?"

I froze"A mirror fell on my and i had to go to the hospital"i said quickly.Technically that wasnt a lie.I paused to listen.It was quiet in my house.Dad wasnt home but i heard knocking."Hold on Tori"i said.My phone vibrated in my hand.

Notification:

Ash:im outside knocking open upp

Shit.Why is he here.This is usually when i have my mood swings.I ran downstairs and opened the door.I looked at asher as the setting sun made his skin glow like an angel.

"HI" i said quietly.He looked me up and down.I had forgotten i had my legs bandaged.i stared at them for a moment and look back at him.His eyes widened in horror.

"WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED?" He said,slightly yelling.He picked my up bridal style and held me close to him.i wrapped my arms around him neck and buried my face into his neck.He stepped inside and closed the door pushing it with his back.He carried me upstairs and put me down on my bed.He sat infront of me.

"what happened"he asked grabbing my bandaged arm.I winced in pain and he let go

"A Mirror fell on me and the shards cut me.Thats all"He still looked concerned.

"I feel like your hiding something important from me...."Shit.Was he on to me.My eyes widened giving me away.i wasnt ready to tell him.Right when i was about to say something I heard doors unlock.

"DAD?" i yelled

"YES?"he replied

"sorry ash.You have to go."He looked at me hurt."fine."he said upset.He handed me my work

"night"he said harshly.I looked down at my work.About to cry.I felt the tears welling up."im sorry Asher."i whispered.I heard my dad say hello to him and then he door opening and closing loudly.I started to cry.I walked into my dad room and saw him reading on the bed.I

"dad why couldnt i have been born normal without an un-curable disorder"i said in between sobs.He looked up at me.

"WEll maybe if you werent a little WHORE God would BLESS YOU"he said angrily.I looked at him,my eyes getting big.He sounded exactly like my mother.He came toward me.I started screaming

"DAD DAD WHAT ARE YOU DOING"he came toward me till i had to where else to run and my back was against the wall.i examined him face.To see if this was really my dad.It was but one characteristic was different;His eyes.instead of the pretty hazel that i stole from him,It was red....Red.If your eyes are red your most likely a demon.I could recognize those eyes.My mom was BORN a demon.Even without actual red eyes,i saw red eyes in her.Along with devil horns.My dad suddenly grabbed my leg and pulled it forward causing me to hit my head on the wall and my back to hit the floor.He started punching me and kicking.With every blow i coughed and screamed.

"Your such a little whore.When your a prostitute you have to get used to beating slut bag."he said.

i managed to speak"Nice to speak to you mom.""why don't you go back to the depths of hell and leave my life alone"

my dad punched me in my face."Your mom?Your an idiot."I knew your mother was right.You are going to be a prostitute."I became confused.I looked into his eyes and saw hazel.It wasnt mother.

"YOUR THE REASON MY WIFE IS GONE"he screamed as he punched my mouth.I felt blood in my mouth.

"YOUR SO UGLY AND WORTHLESS"He punched me one more time causing the blood pooling in my mouth to splatter on the wall,my clothes,and the carpet.

"its so funny how you have such a good boyfriend."he began as he turned away from me."If he knew what kind of freak and slut you are he would dump you"I started getting mad,clenching my fist."Did you tell him about your disorder?""You shouldn't hid things from your boyfriend"HE said and began laughing.He knew all my weaknesses.I lost all my sanity.I got up,ran and jumped on his back,knocking him over.I began to punch his head as if it were a drum and if my fist were the drumsticks.It didnt seem to effect him.He got up causing me to fall off his back,He picked me up and threw me up against the wall.

"Stupid Worthless Slut"