Ambers POV after crying myself into a deep long sleep,I finally wake up a few hours later with the biggest headache ever and feeling like absolute shit. I turn on my phone to see it legit blown up from beau trying to get hold of me,boy he never gives up does he. I open and read a few of the many texts from him
From Beau;
Please atleast give me a sign that I know your okay, please I just want to know that your home safe and okay, even if you hate me way more then before ..I'm sorry xx
From Beau;
Look I know I'm a dick,I've already stated that in half of these texts,just please text me back or pick up,I just want to hear your voice xx
From Beau;
We need to talk..please pick up,I promise ill leave you alone after xx
After reading those,I realised something,there was no going after from the fact I'm completly fallen and into beau brooks,I can try to hate him as much as I want to but I can't, in all honesty, I want him here, I want him to hug me the way he hugs me,smile at me the way he does, I want him to love me the way I love him but I think he's already prove way too many times that ,that is never going to happen
I get up and look in the mirror,wow I looked a complete mess,I actually couldent help but laugh, I mean I had black marks all down my face from my makeup, my hair sticking up in all directions ,you couldent help but laugh.
After fixing my face and hair I change into my usual lazy attire knowing ill never ever want to go out again,might aswell get use to it. I get back in bed and feel my phone vibrating , great I missed another one of his calls..wait I dident want to answer right? I mean I'm meant to be angry at him,I can't help but want to speak to him. I'm about to put my phone down on the bedsidetable when I receive a text
From beau;
Look,I guess I should just tell you, I don't expect you to reply,you probably won't because you hate me. I just thought I should tell you that...well ...I like you..a lot infact, more theni could ever even explain to you and the fact I keep upsetting you kills me amber, I don't mean to, I promise, I'm just use to how I've been before. Speaking to you is different then speaking to any other girl,you make me go all warm inside,the way you listen to what I saye way year eyes light up when we talk about something that interests you,all of that is beautiful to me,to me your amazing, and I will never forgive myself for making tears come out of those beautiful eyes, I'm sorry...xxx
Well its safe to say I've never been as speechless as I am now
