Darkside Effect Book Two

Im so Selfish

   (Jazzabell Pov)

  "No don't go im sorry!" Tears stream down my cheeks as i see my mother walk out the door with a suit case in hand.

  "Jazzabell its ok she will be back" says Chantelle her secound oldest sister who was always there for her when she was left alone crying.

  "W-will she?" i wip the tears from eyes and tern to face her.

  She was grinning, like she was trying to smile but yet blaming herself.

  I huged her and she comferts me as well as i do.

    "M-moms gone" Daphne crys as she looks out the ice cold window watching our mother closing the car door.

   "Daphne" i wisper under my breath as i watch her cry chasing after mom.

But it was to late mom was gone, Daphne colasps on her knees in tears.

  "W-why did you leave me? you said youd take me with you were aver you go"  she crys out looking at the sky.

   "Shell be back i know she will" Chantelle says like she was trying to mean it.

  We all look up at the sky outside on the deck.

Its so pretty that i started to hate it, a felling runs through me as to a little felling that the skys beauty isn't all that bad.

       And so it was just Daphne,Chantelle and our evil fauther who was nice at times  (split personalitys)

  Next morning

   I step out of the house going to the blue park.

I blam myself for mom leaving i was upset with her actions as to what she said to me befor thus i gave silent treatment because i wouldve blone up on her, but there was a better way of handling that.

  She may be an abult but she is only human she is not perfect she trys in her own way, ans yet i pushed her away making her fear i would leave her to just like Amanda did.

Amanda left not because of her but because she wanted an advensher she felt traped here.

Just like i am.

    And yet its not me who ran away i stayed for her but there she gose running away from what she created it, her own selfishness.

   Is it wrong that i still want to leave? to find my mom and fix things but not stay here forever?

i have no idea what im doing my life is so miserable and yet im not doing a thing to fix it.

Other people are suffering worse and no matter how hard they try to fix it,there mistakes its not goid enough but they dont give up.

  So every day i say this aloud to myself

"Others are suffzring much more worse then i" and that saying helps me push forward instead of just standing there looking like an idiot.

   I sit on the swing the same one i sat on as i seen the dark shadowy person.

I never got to see him but aleast got to be hold by him being comferted.

  I blush a little then yell at myself (i shouldnt be thinking about that right now) and there i go again swing as high as i can felling the wind pressher my skin and yet curing my sadness.

  Cold tears fall from my face as the swing gose back down flying really high backwards.

          The morning sky reminded me of the time when my mother was still with me smiling.

   Its really all my fault isnt it?

The sky voice...

   "no its not you made her happy you never once said something you shouldn't have to her,she disided to leave on her own free will"

  Is the sky talking to me?

if so it is right though.

  A soft smile apears on my lips as i let go of the swings chanze, i wount be holded back no more im free now.

  Im now felling the cold wind pearsing my skin.

This time no one is here to save me, but thats ok i don't mind dieing its my fate.

  Huh shouldn't i be dead already?

i open my eyes and instead of falling to the ground i was flying softly in the air.

  "Im-im flying" the sunlight sparks as my body flys higher.

  I feel free at last.

     And then i flew to the ground with my shoes on this time.

"i flew" i say juming up an down on the grassy ground.

                 End of her pov.

  (Emerald pov)

  Just when i thought she was a goner and i was about to save her she flew in the sky, she was flying so high.

  White wings appear on her back.

  She relized she wasnt dead and flys higher, as the sun sparks her body lightly sparkles and she gose back to the ground.

  "Why did she do that if i were her i would stay in the sky forever?"

"Because she is special" i replyed to Lora's question and i could see a smile apear on her face.

We both watched as Jazzabell jumps up an down on the green grass, that wasnt so green befor...

            End of pov.