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Chapter 29

Chapter 29- Haylee's POV

I opened my eyes, and the first person I saw was Shawn, singing- but now stopped. So I pronounced his name, weakly. My mom and dad rushed to my bed and hugged me tighter than ever.

"We need to go get Dr. Jeff and Nurse Nancy, we are coming soon. You missed your doze of pills to control the tumors, and they're...multiplying themselves. Shawn stay here please." Said my mom worried, holding my dad's hand as they rushed out the room. This was news to me. My cancer is getting worse. I felt pain in my stomach, but Shawn made me feel better by hugging me tight and planting a delicate kiss in between my eyebrows.

"Oh, Haylee, we were all so freaked out." Said Shawn, grinning- as if he had won a lottery million dollar prize.

"Shawn, can you hand me my phone please?" I asked whispering but trying to be polite. I was going to send Natalia and the gals a text saying I was fine- in our iMessage group chat. He was shocked to look at the lock screen of my iPhone, a picture of Nat and I- both with shaved heads, grinning.

"What? When?" He asked.

"When I was thirteen- two years ago- was when I had my chemo. My hair started falling off, so I just shaved it off. I told Natalia that same Friday night, not in person but by a text. Saturday morning she came to the hospital, with a bald head too. Our hair grew back, but that was one of the moments when I felt the most loved." I said, smiling so hard because I never imagined a friendship that good. Now it was with all the girls.

"Haylee, I feel so loved when I'm with you." He said, holding my hand- which had a needle inserted in it, of course something needed to decrease this romantic moment.

"Me too, Sh-" I was cutoff Shawn's name, by the entrance of Dr. Jeff.

"Hello Haylee. We need to talk to your mother and you-" I interrupted Dr. Jeff.

"What about my dad?" I ask.

"He left already. Shawn I need you to leave the room please." She said, pleading. I couldn't believe my dad had left me already.

"Of course Mrs. Richardson." He said delighted, yet a bit upset.

Shawn left the room quietly, waving a good bye at the door from room 377. I already missed Shawn once he crossed the door- as I have never missed anyone, not even my dad.

"Haylee, your tumors have been multiplying slowly since-at least- a month ago. It's incredible this drastic changed had not been seen in any scan or test. A few days ago, according to your mom, she went to buy you some pills. Those pills made the tumors multiply quicker, as well as expand, causing this erratic reaction inside your colon. We are giving you new pills, and asking you to be less of a carefree person. Of course, you can go out and stuff, but never forget your doze of pills. Or else you would need some chemo-" I interrupted Jeff's calm, but worried explanation about my tumors.

"No, it can't be. No." I shook my head off, tears welling in my eyes. No. No. No. Please not again. I do not need more torture. No.

"Therapy." He ended, my moms' sobs echoing across the room.

"Can you just leave us alone for a second, Jeff?" I said, since Nurse Nancy had left the room already.

"Sure, just make sure you take those pills on your nightstand." Said Dr. Jeff, pointing at green pills.

"Sure I will. Can I start receiving visits?" I ask, politely so I could. A second later, taking my pills.

"Who do you want to see first? Two at a time." Dr. Jeff asked, staring at me.

"Umm...Jacob and Carter." I said, knowing those two care greatly about me. I still did not feel like facing Nat with the new cancer information we had- or anyone else who was one of the girls. Cartah and Jacob were the two I got along with the best, after Shawn- but after our romantic conversation I felt too embarrassed to even look at him.

"I'll bring them in five." He said, closing the door behind me.

"It's...it's more powerful." Said my mom bawling so hard.

"Yes, but it's all gonna be fine, mom." I state, as maybe it were.

"I...how are you so calm?" She said, I hesitated for at least a minute before I could even speak.

"Mom...we will all have our time to come. And mine just came a bit soon. I am not worried or sad or anything. Because I have you and I have them. And they mean so much to me, more than you can imagine- and I met them already. I wish one day, I could mean to someone what they mean to me." I said, hugging her tight. About to spill a tear or two, as she was doing already.

"I...Haylee. Sometimes I'm afraid I've been a horrible mom, that I have taught you nothing. That I have been to overprotective or mature or non-loving. I'm sorry, but you must know that I love you more than I have ever loved anyone." That sentence from my mom, made my tears spill.

For the first time, I did not mind being vulnerable.

Through the door came two handsome and worried. My mom left the room, crying, while insisting on leaving us alone- and she could go grab a coffee.

"Hayls, we were just so stressed. Oh god." Cartah said, while hugging me.

"I...am fine. What are the news?" I asked, with a small smile forming on my face.

"Well, I guess Tay and Ally took this...occasion and took it for the better because now they are an official couple." Said Carter, sad a bit- because in his inside he knew, he wanted that to be Mary Cate and him.

I wanted that to be Shawn and I.

"Well...um, I sort of also...wanted to talk to you about Sav. I just believe she is so special. The way she sticks her tongue out when she's nervous, or wrinkles her nose while laughing, or also blushes a little from the neck. I just don't want her to only be my friend. I want her to be my...girlfriend. I...how do I ask her to be it?" He asks, nervous but with a sparkle in his eyes when he talks about her.

"She loves sunflowers. Bright yellow, fields of them, on a starry night. Beautiful and yet simple, is what she likes. The rest is up to you." I said, happy about the news.

If that were ever to happen to me with Shawn.

Oh my gosh, I'd probably think I was dreaming.

Haylee, you know that is impossible, repeated the bitter, hopeless part of myself.

Or it could happen, Haylee, he could be more than your friend and fall in love with you at any moment, thought my hopeful and cheerful me.

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Hey you guys. I'm updating quite late, and so I'll leave a quick a/n because I am just so tired, beautiful.

Chapter's dedication: SKYYY👊 You are just an incredible, loving, & caring person. You are so sweet and make me smile & ilysm. You're a great writer too, omg.

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