Emma's P.O.V
Is it okay to feel useless? To feel unwanted?
I stare at the blood draining down the sink. The scary part is, it doesn't faze me anymore, it's becoming normal and that frightens me. It's only been one day without chemotherapy and I'm already degrading faster and faster. It's my fault. I chose this, but overall it doesn't make a difference, I'm inching closer to deaths door and right now it's wide open.
I haven't been able to stop thinking about Jack. I can't even bear to think about his name without my heart aching and yearning for him. I said we weren't meant to be; I know that's a lie, but I don't think he does.
I skip breakfast without telling Logan once again and brush my teeth.Outfit:
Hair and Makeup:
I look in the mirror disgusted. I'll never be as good as Evie.
As I'm walking to the lounge I hear familiar chatter. The boys. I then hear the high pitched shrill of a particular she-devil. Evie the Evil. I hesitate for a moment before entering the lounge, everyone immediately pauses their conversation as all eyes turn towards me.
Then, my heart just seemed to stop, my eyes flickered over to Jack and Evie, with Evie sitting on his lap playing with his hair and him planting kisses on her cheek. His eyes wandered to me for a second but left as soon as they had come..
The rest of the boys gave me a sympathetic and apologetic look whilst Daniel looked extra concerned and worried.I gave them a small wave and tried to force a small smile before exiting the room, forcing the tears to stay in.
Jack's P.O.V
I tried my best not to look at her. Not to think about her. Not to love her. But I failed, I know I fucked up, but Evie forced herself on to me. I knew I had to distract myself so I got with Evie. When she told me that we weren't meant to be, it left my heart in pieces. I saw the hurt in her eyes. I just hoped she couldn't see the hurt in mine.
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i hate u, i love you | jack avery
FanfictionJack and Emma go to the same high school and have despised each other as long as they can remember, but as they grow and their life takes many twists and turns, will their feelings for each other grow too?