i hate u, i love you | jack avery

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Emma's P.O.V

I'm toxic.

And I finally admitted it. Since I came into their lives all I've done is worry them. Maybe, I should be looking forward to when I leave, so I can finally stop being a burden, stop being a responsibility no one want to have. I hurt Jack. I hurt him one too many times and I will aways regret it, no matter how much I tell myself it's for his own good, I know it's wrong.

I wiped my tears and went to go grab a glass of water.
Abruptly, a burning sensation began rising up in my throat.
I froze. My lungs clenched and my chest tightened. The burning sensation began dominating my entire body as it felt like I was on fire. It felt as if someone was suffocating me, strangling me; draining the life out of me. The walls were closing in on me rapidly, I couldn't move, the glass dropped to the floor, so did I.

Jack's P.O.V

The sound of a glass dropping echoed through the house. But what happened next, echoed in my head louder, the sight of Emma on the floor. My heart paced, on the verge of giving out, Logan picked her up, frantically shouting.
"Someone call the ambulance!"
Tears quickly began filling his eyes as well as everyone else's as Jonah called the ambulance, trying to explain everything without breaking down, meanwhile, I was already a mess.

We tried to get her to wake up yet to no avail until finally the ambulance arrived, at this point we were all in fits of tears. She can't leave me. Not now, not ever.
Logan and I hopped in the ambulance as the rest of the boys followed the it. I stared at her gorgeous face, the one I love, the one I'm so fond of, praying she'd be okay. Wisps of hair fell in front of her face, the oxygen mask covering her mouth. I can't lose her.

I held her hand tightly, the one that fit perfectly in mine, the one that was made for mine,
"Emma please, Don't leave me" I said softly through tears as Logan sobbed, holding her other hand.
We arrived at the hospital after a couple of minutes and everything seemed to go by in a blur.

They laid her out on a stretcher, leading her through the hospital to the emergency room. We were told to wait outside but I couldn't bear it; I had to see her, make sure she's okay.
The boys tried to comfort me but images of Emma on the stretcher kept flashing in my head. I wanna hold her in my arms one more time. Feel her lips on mine one more time. I wanna hold my arm out for her, I want her to lay her head on my chest, bury her head in the crook of my neck, cuddle together. I wanna be with her. This can't be the end.

I ran my hand through my hair frustratedly. How did this get so fucked up so quickly? I looked through the small glass pane window of the door.

I wanna hold her in my arms and tell her it'll be okay.
I wanna hear her voice again.

Emma's P.O.V

My sound and vision blurs and fades in and out. An array of unknown faces were set around me, until finally, I saw the ones I love. I wanted to reach out, tell them I'd be okay even though I knew this was the end. Jack came into sight and I attempted to take a ragged breath, for him. I had to tell him before I leave.

"J-Jack" I managed to croak out. He nodded, not being able to speak through tears,
"Please Emma don't leave me, I love you, I need you, please" he managed to croak out through tears. I slowly shook my head.

"I...I-I'm sorry for h-hurting you. R-Read the euology for me p-please...I love you too, more th-than you'll know, n-never d-doubt that" I managed to let out. I held my shaky hand out to his face, shakily tracing the features I'm in love with as he held my hand to his face, leaving a kiss.

I let my hand drop.

The pain that once burned like fire had faded away to an icy numbness. Black filled the edges of my vision and the only thing I could hear was my own heartbeat. My breath came in ragged, shallow gasps. Seconds passed as I lay there, then, I heard distorted voices, frantically speaking and some shouting my name. People swarmed all over me, trying to help me, trying to save me. If I could, I would've laughed, surely they would've realised it's far too late. I told him. I would be able to leave all the pain behind. I closed my eyes, I could die happily now.

My fragile human heart beat one last time.

Jack's P.O.V

Everything seemed to go slower. The monitor went flat as she closed her eyes. It seemed like my heart stopped beating along with hers.
In that moment of loss, my world collapsed-where there was light became shadows, the pain coming and going like waves on frigid sand. Though my mind called out for her, she was gone.

I collapsed onto the floor unwillingly,
"Emma!" I screamed through the waves of tears, the boys held me back.
"No! She has to come back!" I yelled, just hoping she'd hear my voice and make her way back.
"Emma no! Come back please!" I screamed, yet to no avail. They held me as I sobbed uncontrollably on the floor, attempting to piece back my heart, though she took all of them with her.

My heart ached for her, but this time, she was gone forever.