Torn

{character 4} What's Next?

I woke up happy not yet knowing what the day held for me. I was still upset with what happened last week, but happy about what happened a couple days ago. I've been all over the place. School has been hard for me. This year is really important to me so I want to do my best but it's really hard with all of this stuff that's been going on. Then with practice going on all the time.  I'm all over the place.

I was getting ready for the day and my phone would not stop going off. My phone never does that. So I walked over to look at it. Luke was texting me non stop. I didn't even answer him. I knew what he was doing and i am done with him. I can't deal with him anymore. I'm happier without him. I walked into my bathroom to finish putting on my makeup. Once I was done I grabbed my phone and backpack and went downstairs to eat breakfast.

I walked up to the table that we all sit at in the morning. No one was there but Luke. I started to walk away but he Got up and walked towards me. "Ava I made a mistake, I miss you... I need you. There is no one better than you." He said grabbing my shoulder. "No Luke, I over you. You are the worst thing that has ever happened to me. Don't talk to me every again." I said facing him. Out of the blue  he slaps me across the face and walked away. I was so mad I didn't know what to do. But than I felt a hand on my back.

"Ava are you ok, I saw everything that happened. I would have done something but I couldn't  get to you in time." Cole said while I was turning around. "Yes I think I am, I hope so. It fine I dont think there was anything you Could have done." I said hugging him. I wasnt thinking because I hugged him and Wyatt was looking right at me when I did it. I didn't know how he was going to react. The bell rang and we all went to are first hour. School is a pain in the butt. Know one likes it, and I'm sitting there doing nothing. I don't like being here. Everything just goes wrong at school. Why do I even go.

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I got home and went upstairs to my room to do my homework. I jumped on my bed to get started but I started to think. I felt really bad about what I did today. I hope Wyatt didn't  think that I did that on purpose. Especially after the night we talked. I always ruin things. I try to make this happy for me but than I go and ruin everything. I had to get my homework before dinner but that didn't  work. I was stuck on biology. I hated it, sometimes I wish I wasnt here. I was so upset I shut off my phone and went to dinner.

I walked downstairs I knew my mom was in a bad mood. I didn't  know why and I didn't want  to know. I alreally have a lot in my life. My mom knew me too well, she knew I was in a bad mood and she gave me my plate of food so I could eat it in my room. "Here Ava, but wait I need to give you something else before you go." She said handing me my plate. She wrote something down on a piece of paper. She turned around and gave it to me. I knew it was going to be bad. She always did that when didn't want  to tell dad something. I took it and my plate back to my room. I sat at my desk and started to eat my dinner.  I started to think about the note my mom gave me.  I knew it was not going to be good. So it's just another thing on my list. Just another thing to worry about, another thing... I Walked to my bed and opened the note. I took a deep breath in and started to read. I knew something was up with her. I can't believe this is happening. My mom is losing her job. It took me so long to get my home work done. It was so stressful. I looked at the time and saw how late it was. I got up and got ready for bed. I was happy to go to bed. But than I got a text.

Cole: are you ok, I just wanted to make sure especially after today.

Me: ya im ok but I just got some news that my mom is losing her job, so I'm not too happy right now. All I really want is to go to bed.

Cole: that's not good. I hope everything will work out. I know it's hard it has happened in my family. So if you need anything I'm here for you.

Me: thanks Cole, I feel a little bit better now. I'm going to go to bed now. Goodnight.

Cole: you are welcome, see you tomorrow. Goodnight.

I plugged my phone in the charger and put it on my night stand. I layed in my bed thinking. Thinking what was happening in my life. I had lost my boyfriend, someone who cared for me, and a part of my mom. I just felt so bad I didnt know what to do so all I did was put my head on my pillow and cried myself to sleep.