C H A O S

Truth or dare

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Hey so I'm here just to put in a little trigger warning. Alcohol, Drugs, and mentions of Rape.
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"Truth or dare?" I say to Tyler.

He hesitates for a moment. "Dare."

"Now I'm not creative or anything but. Uh I dare you to shotgun a beer." I grab out a beer, my pocket knife and my video camera.

"Alright then."

I poke a hole in it spilling a bit but not to much and I gently hand it to Tyler.

"3...2...1...GO!" I yell we'll pressing record.

Tyler pulls the opener and chugs its in probably 26 seconds.

"Nice." Ashley says well starting to sit down next to me.

"I like beer but they're not my dads favourites so I have them every now and then." I say finishing off my Mountain Dew. I grab out a beer.

"Alright Ashley. Truth or dare." Tyler says before sipping his drink.

"Dare me up!" Ashley's a dare devil at times but she's also a rule follower. Interesting combination.

"Alright. I dare you to jump in the pond."

The pond is small and has like lily pads and frogs and stuff.

"Hope you don't jump on a frog." I say laughing.

She takes off her shirt. "I always bring a swim suit when I go to parties or play truth or dare."
She starts heading over to the pond.

I grab out my video camera again.

I press record and follow Ashley to the pond.

She jumps and it sprays a bit. I'm far enough away that it won't get me or my camera.

She comes out of the pond soaking wet with a leach on her ankle.

"Leach!" I say loudly.

Tyler starts laughing quietly and Ashley grabs it and throws it back in the lake.

"Oh." I say well zooming into her face on the camera then turning it off.

The alcohol is taking a bit of an effect. It's not strong or anything but I'm a little dizzy. 

I walk back over to the tree and sit down. Tyler sits next to me and Ashley sits across from us.

"Ember truth or dare?" Ashley says looking at me.

"Uh truth. Purely because I don't wanna get up again okay."

"Alright give me the video camera. I'm gonna record everything but my stuff."

I nod and hand her the camera. From what I can tell she's recording.

"Alright your truth is, What happened between you and Luke?"

It took me a minute to understand what she was talking about. Now I know exactly what she's talking about. My heart starts to hurt. He was the one who broke me. Not my dad or mom but him. I trusted him with my life. He was kind to me. The first person I opened up to since my mom. Ashley doesn't know basically anything besides my dad being... Bad. One day I was laying down on Luke's bed and he came in a little drunk. He got mad at me and accused me of cheating. Then he slapped me. Right across the face. He kept rambling on about how I'll make it up to him. He started taking off his and my clothes. He forced me to have sex with him. I tried screaming at first and hitting back but he threatens to take pictures and share them and also tell people about my messed up life. He invited his best friend James over to join him. And regardless to say he still told people about my dad and mom. Released the photos.Then a few weeks later he committed suicide. Life's been hell ever since.

I get up and grab my bag. I start to walk away.

"Ember where are you going?" Tyler says standing up.

I start running trying not to cry in front of them.

I run till I can't hear them yelling anymore.

Now I'm walking down a quiet street. It's late ish so it's dark.

"I just wanna forget." I whisper to myself.

I trip over myself a bit. Oops.

I have another spot I like to go. There's a forest near here and this a little area in there that's completely cleared with trees over top of it. I'll be honest it's where people go to get high. It's called the dome.

It's close so I'm almost there.

I grab out a beer and start drinking it. Two left.

It's not a long walk to the dome and there hasn't been any recent bad things happening in here so.

I wonder if they're still looking for me?

Probably not. I'm not worth looking for.

I'm here. I sit down right in the middle. No ones here.

I grab out one of those cupcake holders, an apple, and a pen.

I put the cupcake holder down next to me.

I stab the apple at the top where the stem normally is and press down till the pens probably half way down.

I stab another hole on the side and make the two holes meet up in the middle of the apple.

I blow out any extra apple or whatever.

I grab out my lighter and open my cupcake holder and put some of the dried up leaves in the top.

I put the rest down and put the apple up to my mouth. Then I set the leaves on fire.

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Everything's spinning. I've drank all the beer and the tiny vodka. I'm not even sure what's what. But I'm away from my problems. Everyone and everything.

This is a feeling no human will ever give me, no school, no food, nothing can compare to this and putting in my headphones.

I put them in. Little Lion Man.

"It was not your fault but mine
And it was your heart on the line
I really fucked it up this time
Didn't I, my dear
Didn't I, my dear."

I look down at my shirt for a moment and I smile. He'll leave me but I think I won't mind getting hurt by him.

I stare at the sky, tree mix, well everything spins and I blackout.