C H A O S

Love?

I'm sitting in the middle of art class. Staring at the wall which is actually right next to Ashley.

She walks over to me.

"Hey Em." She says without a smile. Normally she's all smiley what's up?

"What's up? Are you okay?"

"Yeah just something on my mind recently. Can I talk to you at lunch by the bleachers outside?" She says fidgeting with her hands.

"Yeah of course."

She smiles and heads back to her seat.

Hmm?

***

"So it's been really hard for me to deal with this. I hate myself for what I'm supposed to do but I really can't let you get attached to anyone else before I confess."

"Oh..?"

Before I have time to react she kisses me.

I don't pull away but I don't kiss back either.

After a moment I put my hand on her face somewhat intensifying the kiss

I'm kind of frozen. It's been so long since someone's kissed me...

She backs away.

Her lips are soft. She smells like cherry blossoms.

I've never seen her in this way before.

"Ashley I-"

"No need to say anything. This won't ruin our friendship if you don't want it to. But before going any further with that Tyler kid just know I'm here. I've liked you for a long ass time. Honestly a month after we started being friends. I guess Tyler was the push I needed to get my feelings out there."

She pauses.

"You're a really amazing person and just because you're broken doesn't mean you can't be fixed. I wanna help fix you."

She walks away.

Woah.

***

I'm sitting by the oak tree. I'm listening to roses.

I don't know what to think about Ashely. We've been friends for so long. She knew I was Bi but she never told me she was into girls. Or into one girl?

I honestly don't know what to do.

What would Tyler think. Would me and Ashley's friendship really be fine if I went with him. He is amazing. I don't wanna hurt him. I've never looked at Ashley like that before. I don't know what to think.