shattered

#23 - Bisexual Feelings

Alex's P.O.V

Depression.

It's dissipated.

Completely gone.

I'm actually, genuinely happy.

I'm getting closer to Marcus, he's been the one to help me through this whole...love triangle? Whatever it was, is gone, they are happy, I'm happy. I've moved on from her somehow with Marcus as my distraction. He's a good person, trust me, even though he could've been in on the whole plan that we had all sketched out for Evaligne and Ryan. I've been able to learn more about him, and vice versa.

Marcus' P.O.V

I've fallen for him. I've actually fallen for Alex. Well, I actually fell for him in two ways. I literally fell for him this morning before school. Funny story. I tripped on the steps that led up to the front doors when I was talking to Alex this morning. The other way that I fell for him is pretty self-explanatory. I love him. And I'm not talking about you know best friends and buddies and stuff. No, I mean that I love him.

Yes, I am not straight. Not quite the opposite either. I am actually bisexual. I take pride in my sexuality, but I have a good feeling that Alex is so oblivious that he is the only person in the whole school that has absolutely no idea. Well, he should get the hint because of that one time I was at his house and I went all gay on him. He looked terrified at the least. Shocked, shook, and maybe even triggered would be describing words for his reaction.

Oh god, I just realized that Alex can never know about the fact that I have a thing for him. I feel like he'd either reject me, be downright disgusted, or just not even say anything and just abandon me. I know there is no way that boy has any other feelings than being friends for me.

He is either so gay that it's just not obvious to everyone else, or he could also be completely afraid that I will sexually assault him. I would never do that to anybody, but there is a possibility that he might think so.

I'd rather have his consent of course.

Although, I can't even ask for consent unless he knows that I have a thing for him. I just really don't know how to tell him. Like at all. That guy could be homophobic for all I know. Evaligne is happy without him and Alex is happy without her.

One way or another, he's gonna know soon enough.

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it's been two weeks and i am so sorry. i completely forgot about the book, i have school, and the fact that whenever i did get on wattpad, i wouldn't have any material for the book. so basically, i just blanked out. my apologies, here's a chapter for my forgetfulness. and by now you've figured out that Marcus is that one friend that makes everything sexual, is funny, and/or will legitimately be that one bi/gay friend who might twerk on you when you least expect it.

love all of you.

-emma⭐️