Song of the chapter- Born to die by Lana del Rey
Allison-
He pulled me close, kissing my mouth taking me by surprise. He stepped back passion smoldering in his eyes. I looked at him touching my mouth where his kiss still burned. The moment my eyes locked on his it was like the fire I get every time I was with him came flooding back. My breathing which was already uneven as I thought of the possibilities of something bad happening, something bad always happens.
"Allison" he said, his voice deep and raspy as my name rolled off his tongue, speeding up my heart rate even more. He was standing so close to me that I could feel his irregular breathing on my face. My body literally ached from being so close to him without being able to touch him. All I wanted was to throw my arms around him and pull him tightly as I would never let go.
I missed him. I missed everything about him and i can't believe that I still want him. I tried fighting the feelings of love and lust as I tried to focus on him staying away from me.
"W-What do you want harry" I managed to say but my voice came out in a weak stutter failing at trying to keep my voice stern. His eyebrows furrowed as he looked at me with such determination.
" I came to find you" he said, I couldn't think what to say to him. I stared into his green eyes as my lips parted as I tried to say something.
"I don't want to see you. You should leave,"
"I'm not leaving without you" he said sternly.
"Harry, please leave" I begged, desperately needing him away from me. I needed him to stay safe, because I know somewhere he's watching. He's always watching.
"Al, I'm broken without you." He said as I couldn't speak. I was completely oblivious to how he had the same dark circles under his eyes and how his hair was matted to his head as if he ran his fingers through it out of frustration often. He then came closer than before, his hands securing my arms from escaping.
" I know you're trying to protect me, Al" he said slowly. He eyes stated into mine as if he was searching for any sign of emotion or if I was lying.
"I don't know what you're talking about." I lied weakly, my voice unconvincing.
"Yes you do Allison. You're trying to protect me from him." He said, shaking my body slightly. He knew. He knew I didn't want to leave him and that I was only trying to protect him. He probably also knew that I was completely in love with him. I knew in my head how it was going to be impossible trying to convince him that I don't care about him, but I had to at least try.
"Leave Harry. Now" I said, attempting to sound stern and serious but failed as I kept stuttering.
"I love you, Allison." He said suddenly. His chest rose and fell quickly as he breathed. I could feel the intensity so strong around us as it was nearly suffocating.
"I can't love you, harry" I said. My voice barely audible as I could feel the tears forming in my eyes as I tried to blink them away.
" You love me Al and you know it" he said with anger and hurt flashing through him. He then look a deep breath before he spoke again.
"I can it in your face how you're trying so hard to fight it. Don't fight it Al." His fingers then grasp my chin forcing me to look at him. The tears that I was desperately trying to hold back slid their way along my cheeks as I tried to control my irregular breathing.
"I don't want you to get hurt" I said quietly as I tried to escape his grasp but he ignored my attempts as both of his hands held my face firmly.
"I need you Allison. I'm half a heart without you." He said with his voice dripping with pain and honestly.
I need him. He needs me as much as I desperately need him. It's funny how we both felt the exact same thing over the coarse of weeks with out each other. We are one, we're half a heart without each other.
"You love me Al" he whispered so softly that only I could hear. I was shaking as we both stood in the middle of a deserted park not taking our eyes off each other.
"Kiss me, and you'll see how important I am." He then surprised me then when he brought his mouth toward mine. He kissed me, and for a moment, I was too stunned to respond. That lasted for about a second. Then the intensity I'd come to know so well in him returned. The same fire was ignited and stronger than ever as it was burning me inside and out. He pushed me backward against a nearby tree, lifting me so that I my legs instinctively wrapped around his waist. Whatever logic and reason I normally possessed had melted away. There was nothing but flesh and fire left, and I wasn't going to lie to myself-I love him.
Harry tipped my face up toward his and kissed me harder. The world around me stopped moving. No, the world became Harry, only Harry. Kissing him was as mind-blowing as ever, full of that same passion and need I had never believed I'd feel. But today, there was even more to it. I no longer had any doubt about whether this was wrong or right.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer as I feel him smile against the kiss. I didn't care that we were out in public in a park. All that mattered was that he was Harry, my Harry. Maybe being with him was like signing myself up for disaster, but I didn't care. In that moment, it seemed that as long as Harry and I were together, there was no challenge too great for us.
I don't know how long we stood there kissing. Like I said, the world around me was gone. Time had stopped. I was awash in the feel of Harry's body against mine, in his scent, and in the taste of his lips. That was all that mattered right now.
The kiss ended to soon for my liking as we both pulled away, both of us gasping for air. His forehead rested on mine as his eyes burned into my blue ones.
"I love you" he whispered, his voice completely filled with emotion as a single tear slid down his face.
"I need you to say you love me, Ally"
"I love you" I whispered so soft I don't think he heard but he proved me wrong when he moved toward me again. His hands released mine and moved to my waist, and I noticed I wasn't the only one breathing heavily. He pulled me to him, bringing our bodies together. The world was all heat and electricity, thick with tension that was only one spark away from exploding around us. I wrapped my arms around his neck, and this time I was the one who drew him closer. My heart so hard it felt as if was going to pop out as the fire ignited still lingered in my veins. Choose your last words, This is the last time Cause you and I We were born to die.
"I love You, Harry"
(A/N don't know if I should do a dirty chapter next lol. Maybe if I get feedback I'll try to put one in there. Comment and vote please😊)
