Song of the chapter- Night Changes by One Direction
Harry-
"Harry, visiting hours are over" her father had his hand on my shoulder as he shook me from my sleep.
"Can I stay with her" My voice was immensely dry causing the tone of my voice to crack.
He gives me a smile of sympathy and nods his head.
"Get some rest, son. Don't worry too much she'll be alright." He closes the door as he left, leaving me alone with her.
He red lips were now a pale pink almost a flesh color. Her hair was matted and tangled. Her porcelain skin had bruises on her arm. This is my fault.
I reach out to touch her hand, I caress it as if she can break even more.
"Al, I'm so sorry" I felt tears brim but I didn't want them to fall.
"It should've been me, Al" I look at her and her eyes are still closed.
"I'll understand if you don't want me. You are everything I ever wanted. I love you, Al" I lean over and place a small kiss on her cold forehead.
"I Love you." I say once again, before I sat back down in the chair.
A loud beeping noise was being heard from the monitor that was connected to her. The monitor starts going crazy as I start to freak out.
"Help! Someone help her!" I yell out the door. Two doctors come in and immediately check on her.
"She's going into cardiac arrest" I heard one of the doctors mumble before turning to me.
"Sir, please step out" he says pushing me putt he door.
"No!" I push back as I try to reach her as the other doctor get out this machine out.
"Sir, you need to get out!" He says before pushing me and closing the door.
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Five hours it has been since the doctors said to step out. Three fucking hours without hearing any news about her. I've been pacing back and forth for the past 30 minutes, my mind thinking the worst. The doors suddenly open out coming the doctor with blood on his hands.
"What happened ?" I immediately ask. His expression on his face shows signs of worry which worries me.
"Allison was in cardiac arrest due to small fragments of the bullet. We've managed to remove most parts. The bullet fragments were closer to the abdominal aorta and inferior vena cava which if they are ruptured, she could have died." He sighs before he removes his glasses and runs a hand threw his hair.
"Right now her heart is extremely fragile that any distress can be a risk for her, so I suggested a associate of mine in America to Allison's father that specializes in these types of cases ."
"So you're transfering her? " I ask the doctor sighs again which really starts to annoy me.
"I have called her parents that we are transferring tonight since she's stable." My eyes immediately widen. The doctor looks at me with caution as if I'm going to crack at any second.
"You're transferring her tonight?" I tried to keep my voice down but I guess it didn't work out from looks I was getting from bystanders.
"It's the only she can live her life without any damage to her heart" he says as then he begins to walk away.
"Can I see her?" My voice sounded desperate but I didn't care.
"I'll give you five minutes to say goodbye." He says.
I walk toward her room and I want to throw up at the sight of her. She's connected to many wires to many machines. Hints of blood can be seen on her hospital gown and bed sheets. I grab a chair and sit beside her while grabbing her hand.
"So here we are again , always saying good-bye. Since I've known you, you've been spinning and spinning and spinning into all these various personalities, and none of this has given you a sense of peace. I've known you for a year, and I still have no idea who I'm in love with. I don't know how you say good-bye to who I love. I don't know a painless way to do it, don't know the words to do it. " I'm having trouble continuing as I try not to choke on my own sobs, but I finally had the guts to continue.
"I love you, I'll always love you. I hope we'll meet one day again soon, real soon."
Allison-
He came up and kissed me on my forehead. I wanted to remember him exactly as he was before all of this, I didn't want to remember how his voice sounded full of sorrow because of me.
Then he was gone.
Just for that moment, the thought that I might never see him again... it felt worse than death. I rather stay here and die than to never see him again but I'll find a way, I want to fight for him, because he's worth fighting for.
Harry-
It was the next day and I knew she already left by now. I've left the hospital after my five minutes were up. I went to my home and just have been sulking all day. The doorbell rings, breaking me out of my depression. I walk to the door in an almost zombie form. I open the door to her father in my doorstep.
"Here" he hands me a letter addressed to me and immediately recognized the handwriting.
"What is this?" I grab the letter from his hands, holding it with great care.
"I was packing all of her stuff and I found this. Thought you should have it." He says as he places his hand on my shoulder before leaving.
I shut the door as I take the letter to my room.
I rip it open carefully and I take out the thin paper in my hands and prepare myself for what I'm about to read.
Hi Harry. Wow that was so lame, I swear I sometimes wonder what you see in me. Anyways I knew one day you'll read this when something tragic happened and knowing you, you've probably been sad all day. Harry I'm so sorry that I'm the cause of your broken heart. You don't understand how much it kills me to know that you're like this. If I die, I will wait for you, do you understand? No matter how long, I'll watch over you to make sure you live you life to the fullest, and then we'll have so much to talk about when I see you again. We now get to the end of this letter were we get to the hard part. the endings, the goodbyes, and the famous last words. if you don't hear from me often, remember I'll always I have you in my mind and that I'm probably making a plan to see you again haha.
See you later, Harry, I love you always.
- Your Al
