Wish (JJ Project)

Extra - Green and Gray (Markson)

Jackson slammed the door to his apartment open and stormed into the room. He could still heard it being closed softly through the ringing rage in his ear. He burned in anger with every steps he took. On the contrary, the sound of footsteps that followed behind him was quiet. Mark had always been that way, and his presence alone could make Jackson feel calm and relaxed. But not this time. It only made him feel more irritated and impatient.

"Now tell me, why can't I find Jaebum and punch him on the face? Why did you stop me?" Jackson roared in fury as he shooting fire at the other's expressionless face.

"It's not your place to meddle in their affair, Jackson."

"Why? He selfishly hurt Jinyoung! My best friend! I have every right to do that!"

"It might not like what it seems. Jaebum is hurting too, Jackson, I can see it. There must be something you, me, and Jinyoung don't know. He must've had a reason to do that." There was a slight sadness passing through the pair of eyes that looked back at Jackson, and it infuriated him even more. How can he sympathize with that jerk? Why is he taking Jaebum's side, not mine? I am his boyfriend, not him!

"What reason? No reason could justify his selfish act! Why can't you just admit he is an asshole that only played with Jinyoung's feelings? There's no possible explanation other than that! And now he have the guts to act like he was hurting as much as Jinyoung? He's just a heartless, manipulative bastard!"

Mark's gaze darkened. "Watch your mouth, Jackson," he said with a dangerously low voice, "I understand why you're angry, but you have no right to say that. You don't know anything about him. He is the last person in this earth who would do something like that."

Jackson should've took it as a warning, yet he ignored it and snickered. "Of course, you always knows him the best, he's all you care about. Jaebum is perfect, he would never do wrong, right? Jinyoung should feel lucky he could be his boyfriend even only for a while. And you're so smart you're always right about everything. Why don't you go out with Jaebum instead?"

Only when a loud bang echoed in the room Jackson realized he went too far. Mark's fist landed on the wall, his chest and shoulder rose and fell heavily. He clenched his jaw tightly, and he pierced Jackson's heart with his glare, ireful and hurt.

"I won't let you insult me and my best friend on my face, Jackson, and I'm not gonna put up with this useless argument. Like I said, you don't know anything about him, and it turns out you don't know me as well as I thought you do," he said, letting his fist fell to his side. Three spots of crimson red stained the olive wall where his knuckles were. Jackson's eyes widened in horror and concern, and he grabbed the other's scraped hand in reflex. "Mark, your hand..."

His sentence was cut as Mark jerk his hand off of his grip. The rejection caught him off guard and before he could say anything, Mark muttered a bye and left him alone with his guilt. He slumped back into the couch.

Now he had done it. He let his jealousy and insecurities got the better out of him in his anger. He had always been jealous of Jaebum. He envied the years Jaebum spent with Mark that only the two of them knew. He disliked the fact Jaebum knew the Mark he didn't know, that Jaebum knew Mark better than he was. He hated the times Mark told him he was worried about Jaebum. And he detested himself for feeling that way when Jaebum was also his friend.

He just couldn't help feeling anxieties growing inside him. He was scared Mark would eventually think that Jaebum could understand him better than Jackson. He feared with how much Mark felt concerned over Jaebum his importance only stood on second place in Mark's heart. He knew he was being petty, when he also had a friend that always with him way before Jaebum knew Mark. But even that was feeding on his uneasiness as he felt that Mark didn't love him enough to feel the way he did.