Wish (JJ Project)

Second Chance

The days were getting colder and colder, and the wind no longer brought reddish-brown leaves along with its flow, but the small hueless frozen crystals. Thicker, heavier clothes were getting out of the wardrobes to see the cloudy sky, marking the arrival of another winter Jaebum used to like. Since the nightmare and the image of blood staining the pure white snow started haunting him though, he dreaded it.

If he could, he wanted to confine Jinyoung in his place and never let him go out at all throughout the winter. However Jinyoung had classes to attend, and he hated being trapped at home just because of fear from what might happen. Rather, he had been dragging Jaebum everywhere, saying that he wanted to go on dates to do things he had always been wanting to do when he had a boyfriend.

"But you were fine just spending time leisurely in my place before," Jaebum once protested.

"Back then I was cautious of not making you feel annoyed with me!" Jinyoung retorted. "I thought I had no right to ask for anything from you, since you were already kind enough to stay with me even though you didn't know anything about me and had no feelings for me. I was scared you would leave me. But this time you're with me because you love me, and you promised you would never leave me again. Only now I truly feel like I have a boyfriend, so I just wanted to be more selfish. Why, I can't?"

Jaebum frowned at the bright smile flashed before him at that time, but when Jinyoung started to pout and look at him like a sad puppy, he gave up. And thanks to that, Jinyoung didn't restrain himself anymore to drag Jaebum to every famous dating spot he knew. They went to the zoo and aquarium like other couple. They visited all kind of themed cafe, such as hello kitty cafe (where all the customers were girls giving them weird stares Jaebum wanted to hide and disappear), psychology cafe (where he felt like taking an exam answering almost one hundred questionnaire and Jinyoung cheerfully said, "See, we're completely compatible!" when the result came out which somehow made him more clingy the rest of the day) and cafes with any kind of animals possible like cat cafe (where Jinyoung sulked all day because Jaebum was too immersed playing with the cats and ignored him).

They also crafted their self-made couple rings with their name written on it at an underground workshop which Jinyoung threatened Jaebum he would refuse to talk to him everytime he didn't wear it. They screamed at the top on their lungs on every rides at the amusement park, and ended it with a calm ride on the ferris wheel. They went up to Namsan Tower where Jinyoung forced him to write 'cute message' for him on one side of a small lock and put it on the fence after Jinyoung finished writing on the other side. They even did couple bungee jumping where Jaebum yelled excitedly while Jinyoung shut his eyes closed with paled face, and when Jaebum wanted to do it the second time, Jinyoung firmly refused.

Those dates were actually fun though, mostly because seeing Jinyoung's ecstatic smile and laugh made the happiest moment of his life, he often forgot about the dream. He didn't even have that nightmare anymore. He didn't know if it was because he was too tired by the time he arrived home that he just fell into deep slumber the second his head touched the pillow, or because he slept breathing Jinyoung's scent and feeling Jinyoung's warmth in his arms every night, bringing him sense of peacefulness like nothing else could. And seeing the way Jinyoung smiled sleepily and snuggled closer to him everytime he waited for the other to wake up, admiring the exquisite sleeping face God had crafted in front of him, he believed Jinyoung also didn't have the dream anymore. He never asked, since they never talked about it anymore.

Jinyoung practically lived at his apartment since they were getting back together. The vacant space in his wardrobe started being occupied by Jinyoung's clothes, even though the charcoal haired man still often wore Jaebum's clothes like it was his own, when they were all too big for him. Paired things started appearing on every corner of his apartment, such as toothbrushes, mugs, plates, bowls, slippers, and others. Jinyoung had tried to cook once, but after he managed to burn the pot black and since then Jaebum never let him cook again.