Wish (JJ Project)

So You Can Live

Summer finally came, along with mustard-haired Yugyeom who seemed like he never stopped growing and a skinny, eccentric looking Thai boy called Bambam. He was Yugyeom's classmate and best friend, which told Jaebum that his personality was most probably as quirky as his appearance since his giant brother wasn't anywhere near normal either. Jaebum had already heard a lot from Yugyeom about how he befriend a guy with a weird name the last time he was in Korea, and everytime he visited Jaebum at the hospital he would told him every mischievous pranks they pulled off together, which wasn't only a few. Jaebum's stomach would've been hurting if he could still feel physical pain from laughing too much everytime Yugyeom told him these stories. Another thing he loved about them was because it was able to bring out the clear tinkling sound he missed so much; Jinyoung's laugh. Since then, Jaebum had always been curious of how the boy looked.

The first time Jaebum saw Bambam, he thought he looked like an alien with his platinum silver hair and blue contact lenses. He wore leopard-patterned T-shirt, a black choker, three piercings on his left ear and two on his right. His skinny black jeans emphasizing his thin legs, and a pair of black leather ankle boots with short heels made them looked unbelievably long. However, those weren't the weirdest thing Jaebum found on the Thai boy. For a moment, he saw Bambam looking at him. Not at his soulless body on the bed, but at his fleshless presence by the window.

Bambam swiftly looked away, and Jaebum disposed the thought since there was no change in the boy's expression. It was impossible anyway, no one would ever be able to see him in this form. He watched as Yugyeom introduced Bambam to Jinyoung, Mark, and Jackson. He hoped the duo would bring the much needed cheerfulness in this depressing stark white room. He hoped he could hear laughters filled the room again, especially from Jinyoung.

It was their third visit to the hospital. There were only Yugyeom, Bambam, and him in the room, Jackson and Mark currently dragging Jinyoung out for lunch so he wouldn't skip it. Yugyeom excitedly told Jaebum about his trip to their hometown the other day while Bambam only listened without a word beside him.

"You won't believe it, so many things changed only in the span of four years! I almost can't recognize anything anymore from our neighborhood. That ice cream shop with the kind lady who always gave us free extra scoops is gone. The old library you used to frequent is also gone. You must be sad, hyung."

"I also went to visit mother, bringing a bouquet of baby's breath which she liked. I took a selfie and sent it to father. He's already sulky enough that he couldn't go with me to see you, now he has more thing to envy me about," Yugyeom smirked. No one could escape this overgrown little devil. He would forever be five year-old inside.

"I bragged to her that I graduated with better marks than you. You can't call me stupid anymore, I'm smarter than you now. And hyung, I told her to scold you because you're such a slob, you're always sleeping and skipping all your classes. How are you going to graduate at this rate? Who knows, maybe I'll graduate college before you." He laughed and maybe something got stuck on his throat when he did because he was suddenly coughing. Served him right.

"I'll go get a drink. You watch after him, okay?" Yugyeom said to Bambam.

"Don't worry, take your time."

Silence filled the room after Yugyeom left. It was understandable, Bambam didn't even know him, he would have nothing to say to him. However, turned out he was wrong.

"I bet he's crying somewhere now," the younger said.

Jaebum felt his heart clenched. How can I not notice it? I'm his brother, he said, even though he knew Bambam wouldn't be able to hear it.

"It's not your fault that you didn't notice it. He tried his best to appear as cheerful as possible. He said maybe if he annoy you bad enough you would wake up to hit him," Bambam chuckled. However, Jaebum didn't pay attention to his last sentence, since the first one had already caught him by surprise.It can't be...