The New Dancer

The Oath

•The New Dancer•
•The Oath•
•Part Twelve•

⚠️Warnings⚠️
Violence, torture, murder, abuse

That night you didn't see J again. After he toyed with and killed Jason he went up to his room and didn't come out. You cried on the floor for a while, riddled with guilt. Jason only died cause he was looking out for you. It was your fault.

After Frost had gotten men to come clear up the body - and the blood and brains - he came over to you and helped you out. He helped you up and gave you some water, he arranged for the chef to make you a sandwich which you thanked him greatly for. You sat barely eating, you were too upset for an appetite but you did your best.

Afterwards Johnny sat with you and placed his hand on your shoulder "I'm sorry (y/n), the Joker.. he's like this. I wish I could say it would be different" he sighed and you looked down to the floor.

"But I can tell you what is different" he explained. "I've worked for the Joker many years now and I'm the closest person he's ever gotten to. Apart from you. He's different around you, you may not notice it but I sure do. He cares (y/n), and the reason he's being so destructive is because he hates the feeling. He doesn't do emotion" Johnny explained. "In fact, I don't think he knows what emotions are apart from rage"

After your conversation you went upstairs to your room for changed for bed and fell asleep.

The next morning you awoke nervous. You didn't know how J was going to be, you weren't going to hide your feelings. He should know he's upset you, you no longer wanted to tip toe around him. After all you loved him and after last night he knew that.

You threw on some tight leggings and a grey sports bra then put a baggy jumper on over it. It was only breakfast. You wondered if he'd join you for breakfast.. he usually does.

You walked into the kitchen seeing Johnny drinking coffee reading the paper. You walked in and smiled at him "Morning Johnny"

"Morning (y/n)" he smiled back "sleep well?"

"Not too bad, thanks" you replied knowing he'd understand. You were just about to ask if the Joker was coming down but you were interrupted by the clown himself entering the kitchen.

He walked in shirtless in a pair of grey sweats looking dead tired, and hungover. He had dark circles under his eyes and his face read don't even bother.

You walked to the fridge to get some orange juice hearing a gravelly "Frost, coffee" and turned back to see Frost pouring him the coffee.

You sat at the island when the chef came in to make breakfast. She looked at J about to ask what he'd like for breakfast when she saw his face, instead she turned to you. "What can I get you for breakfast Miss Young?" She asked politely.

"Please, call me (y/n) and I'll just have some toast please. I'm not all that hungry" you smiled at her which she returned and went to make breakfast.

You sat silently sipping at your juice, you felt the Joker staring at you but you did not return the gaze. He'd upset you, he needed to know that. The chef placed a plate of toast in front of you and a tray of butter, jams and toppings to go with it.

You sat and ate your breakfast in a very uncomfortable silence. J was just rubbing his head sipping coffee every now and then while Frost read the paper. You hurriedly finished your toast, thanked the chef nodded to Johnny then walked up the stairs to your room.

You decided to take a shower, so you pulled off your jumper leaving you in your sports bra and leggings when J barged in.

You looked at him in shock, his face contorted into anger and glaring at you.