I Deserve It ( Vic Fuentes )

Broken Trust

I walked towards the bridge to see jean. She stood there smiling at me. I didn't completely smile back but she doesn't expect that of me.

"Hey Vic. How you been?" She has a bag in her arms. I knew that bag well enough to know she had been scavenging earlier that day.

"Ive been better. I try to get out here as much as possible but Vic isn't letting me" I explain.

"Vic? is this third person talk. "

"No Vic is this boy that has been walking me to school and home and trying to make me talk. I broke my own rule and I have but I haven't told him anything personal. He has asked" I say hoping she gets that I'm fed up with him.

"So this Vic has got your attention?" I honestly felt my heart stop.

"NOO! he only has gotten on my nerves. I push him away but all he does is try and try. He even took my phone one day" I vent to her hoping that idea of Vic having my attention is long gone.

"I think you are starting to like him. You talked to him I mean Vic that doesn't mean nothing. I want you to walk with him in the mornings. And say hey to him. You can visit me sometimes on the weekends." She says making sure I couldn't get a word in.

"But jean-"

"No butts I won't talk to you during the week. I expect you to be nice to him. He's got your attention now see why that is " she made it sound final so I knew it was. I nod and head back the way I came from.

It's Wednesday and today is a half day. I head to school knowing today was to be interesting.

"Hey Victoria" Vic's voice came from in front of me. He had began walking towards my house...greaaaat. I was going to try and hide but jeans words were playing in my mind. I wasn't going to not listen. She knew a lot I didn't. I nod at him and continue walking. He is nearing me and I finally take him all in. A black tee with a flannel thrown over it. Skinny jeans black as well. His shoes were converse. His hair was brushed but had curls roll up half way. His smile showed his teeth and made his brown eyes crinkle at the corners. He looked genuinely happy. But why?

"Hey, how's you day been?" he asks starting up a conversation. Or attempting to. I don't want to talk to him. I don't need to. But I want to obey jean. So I know I can't keep my rule unbroken any longer. Honestly around him my rule isn't a rule but a wish.

"Hi." I say. Just being nice. I know I sounded timid but I was far from it.

"Oh you spoke. I figured I would have to speak the whole way here" he said slowly the volume of his voice decreased to a whisper. I knew I shouldn't but I had an idea he needed to know. It worked for Jean and him. Also then I could speak without feeling guilty.

"Okay here's how it goes. I will actually speak to you. BUT I won't speak at school or when kids from school are around. Also whatever you find out about me stays between me and you. So no telling anyone. Police, school, family, or any kids at the school that I speak. We have a deal" I stuck my hand out for him to shake. He glanced at me before speaking up. We had stopped walking by this point

"Police? what are you into?" he seemed to be kidding yet serious.

"All in due time." I respond. I decided to be a mystery about that. I know people think it's abuse or my cutting is dangerous. Maybe it is but I didn't care.

"Alright. So how are you doing in school" he had resumed walking after he shook my hand. His hand had callouses and was warm to the touch in a nice way. I had to shake my head. Those thoughts aren't okay.

"I'm passing so good I guess"

"You're a terrible liar. I've seen your progress report. All A's is best of the best. Especially for college classes." I felt my cheeks heat up as he complimented my grades. But I knew I didn't deserve those grades.

"It's nothing. I just read the text books and do the work they will give us" I say. Trying to bring down the high horse he's shoved me onto.

We were approaching school so I sped up to put distance between us. I didn't need people hating me for being in the presence of Vic.

"Hey! walk you home?" he shouted to me. I nodded and kept on walking.

At lunch it was raining so the coach wasn't going to let my practice. I decided to sit at a table and start the homework for later. I could over hear Vic's crew and him talking.

"So is the mute an actual mute or a fake" I hear Jamie say at a low whisper. My pulse was gaining pace.

"Yeah, it's a fake. She spoke the other night when I went to pick up Vic." Mike was saying.

"Hey guys it's not our business. She doesn't wanna talk we don't make her" Vic warned to them all

"A deals a deal man. Agree to it or sleep with a cheerleader of our choice" tony said.

"I'm not going to force her to speak. She has a choice and she chooses to not speak. you all know she isn't that was the bet. I got her to talk" Vic said one last time before I got up and left.

this is my trust feeling broken. I can't believe him. I agree to this and he's just in it for a fucking bet. This is why you don't fucking trust douche bags like him. They are all fucking losers who fuck you over in a shitty way. Yet I was the idiot who trusted him. I was the one who made a deal with an idiot. Ha deal with the devil. Yet this devil got caught.

I hadn't realized where I was until the rain had seeped through my jacket. And I was feeling the effects of it. I was shivering and couldn't think. I was so pissed. I make a deal and get fucked over.  first day of the deal as well. Maybe I should move again. It's only junior year. I have a chance to start over. No I deserved all this. I made the deal. You lie down in the bed you make. I made this bed so now I had to deal with it.

The bell would ring in a few minutes. I decided to yet again break my rule. I went to the teachers lounge and motioned my 3rd and 4th period teachers out.

"What is it Victoria?" they both asked. I swallowed and took a breath knowing I was about to speak.

"I have my work for the day. Can I leave please. " I say holding out my paper work for the day. They both look astonished.

"You can speak?" my third period teacher asked. I nodded and they both instantly gave me a pity look.

"You haven't spoken ever so I know it's important. You can leave. Because I know you already have the next two weeks work done. Hope everything's okay." I just nod and head out knowing where I was going. This feeling didn't subside of how I hurt myself. I let myself into a deal. I would punish myself. All this thinking would go away. I can't wait.

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a/n

it's summer vacation. so I have been working 40 hours a week sorry about not updating. so it's 11 at night. I stopped working on my summer project for AP English 3. hope you enjoy this!