Cursed To Live

I.

"I'm falling into depression."

I told my mother but she dismissed it

said I should busy myself to not be that way

depression doesn't care if you're busy or preoccupied

it creeps like a spider above your head with no intentions of introducing itself

I felt misunderstood by my mother once again

over 20 years of experience at being the one who gave me life and I'm still a foreign concept to her

Resentment is the first thing that comes to mind 

but I hold it in

like everything else.