even the thought of you knocks the wind out of me, i don't know why but it does, it fucks with my head,
my heart randomly hurts around you
and remembering your hugs feels like.. i can't put it into words exactly.
it feels like my heart is being compressed? not like, emotionally, but physically, it genuinly feels like something is gripping my heart and that my wind pipes are closing up.
i know it sounds exaggerated and overdramatic but it's the only way i can describe how those memories make me feel.
i know i said i would move on and try not to feel the way i do but it feels literally impossible right now.
i wish i could not let you into my head and ignore my feelings but now we've been honest i don't know what to fo anymore.
for fucks sake i even dreamt about you last night, which isnt the first time but its not normal for me to let someone to just flood my mind so far that it reaches my bloody dreams. its getting ridiculous honestly.
i feel like i need you but i know i wouldnt need ou if i moved on, i know i wouldnt think about you and how you make me feel, i know all of this but i can't do it.
im too in love
but i know you don't feel the same and all that bullshit but still, its not normal for me to feel this strongly for someone, let alone vent about a boy and cry over stupid small things that feel like the end of the world for me.
but still
i guess this shows how useless i am doesnt it lmao.
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Vent
Randomthis is where i empty my thoughts onto a page and publish it for people to read and probably laugh at and ignore
