A MEMPHIS CRY

Chapter 25

Lexis

After my recovery I was released from the hospital a couple weeks ago. I had been staying with my mom but after doing apartment searching for days I finally found a place that I move in tomorrow. It was in the hood of course but aye, what choice did I have. I wasn't so lucky like Tiera, she use to not have shit just like me, but no she was living large and taking charge with my man.

I made my appointment with my therapist Ms. Jones like my doctor recommended. I had been seeing her since I was a teenager when I was diagnosed with a Bipolar disorder and tried to commit suicide. I signed in at the front desk and took a seat waiting for her to call me back. The waiting area was pretty much empty, It was only me and another girl in there waiting. I had seen her on a few occasions here but never spoke to her.

Five minutes later~

Ms. Jones came opened her door to her office and called me back. I stepped in her office and looked around it still looked the same since the last time I had been here when I first found out that I was pregnant. She had a large photo covering the wall of her and her family. Although Mrs. Jones had three children that were grown with kids, her brown colored skin didn't have one wrinkle on it. She had long curly hair and a slim body frame, she'd had been married to her husband for over 12 Years that's how I had planned for my life to be with King.

I took a seat by the opposite side of her desk as she closed the door and she sat down in her seat.
"How do you feel today Lexis"? She asked.
"I feel good I guess" I said shoving my shoulders. I really didn't wanna be here, but hey everyone felt as though I wasn't well enough to be a mother.
"How's the medicine I put you on?? I know I couldn't give you the regular dosage because your withchild, but How does it make you feel"? She asked me.

"It make me even more sleepy... I don't like it" I said folding my arms.
She nodded her head and wrote something down in her pad.
"So, have you had any contact with you parents lately"? She asked.

"Only my mother... I have nothing to say to my father and I don't wanna talk about him" I spat at her rudely. Just the thought of my father made my stomach hurt, he did me so wrong and I would never forget it. He was the cause of my hurt and my illness, I never told anyone, but Mrs. Jones that he had molested me a few times and I still wasn't over it. She looked up from her pad and at me, but I just sucked my teeth and rolled my eyes at her.
At times I don't know why she was still willing to help me because I was always so mean to her, if I was her I would have been said fuck me but not Mrs. Jones though she was the sweetest person I knew.

"So do you wanna share anything new with me"? She asked.
I looked at her with a crooked smile "Nope... Same shit... I'm in love with my best friend's fiance" I bluntly said with no care at all.
Mrs. Jones frowned "Lexis we've talked about this... You can't hurt your friend this way. And it's not a good thing to interfere in their relationship especially since they are ready to get married" Ms. Jones said.
"Look I don't care okay... I know what I want and that's him... He loves me to I know he does... I'm carrying his baby" I said lower my voice at the last few words while rubbing my belly.

"And your willing to ruin a friendship that y'all have had since y'all were kids over this man that's not yours"? Ms. Jones said in a calm voice.
"If that's what it takes... Because I love him and I will have him sooner or later" I said with a smile as a tear rolled down my cheek,I didn't even know I was crying.
Mrs. Jones simply shook her head as she wrote down in her pad. She wrote out a prescription passed it to me and told me she wanted to see me back at the end of this month. I let out a evil laughed  as she just sat there staring at me. I told her I would think about it and got up out my chair. I stepped out the office letting the warm air hit my skin I walked a block down and waited for the next bus to come so I could go home I was beyond tired.
Soon as I walked in the house and Down the hall the sounds of moans and ass slapping filled the house.
"Yes daddy harder"I heard my mother moan out.
More moans filled the house as I stood near her cracked bedroom door listening and watching some chubby darkskinned dude hitting my mother from the back .He wasn't the same man that was here last night and that pissed me she was a hoe, off but hey what could I say I was my mother's child. I shook my head and walked off to my bedroom and slammed the door.

Later on~

I sat in the living room with my swollen feet propped up on the table Watching love and hip hop, this was me and Tiera's favorite show we use to watch episode after episode. I got to thinking about Tiera I wondered how she was doing... Well I knew she was in good hands.My thoughts were interrupted when I looked up and saw my mother standing in the entrance of the living room staring at me. I rolled my eyes and focused back on my show...

"So how's my grandbaby"? She asked in a cheerful voice.
I darted my eyes at her  and let out a small chuckle as i looked back at the TV "Ya grandbaby"?
My mom frowned "Yes Lexis my grandbaby"?
"Maybe if you wasn't in there fucking the fourth nigga this week you would know" I spit at her with a evil look.

"Wait a minute Lexis this my shit... You not bout to sit here and disrespect me in my house you must be crazy" my mother barked back.
I chuckled "Whatever".
She pointed her finger at me with a serious face "Lexis I'm forreal... If you got a problem with what I do in my shit then you can get the fuck out".
I smirked at her "With pleasure... Tomorrow I move in my place so I don't care what you talking about"I said with a evil laugh.
Mom took a deep breath as she threw her hands up in the air "Good for you I'm so happy for you... Maybe you can find a man of your own and move the fuck on and stop being so bitter". I waved her off, got up and wobbled out the living room pushing pass her damn near knocking her down but I didn't give a fuck.

Next day~

I moved all the little items I had at Mom's house in my two bedroom apartment this morning and got settled. I looked around the apartment and sighed this wasn't what I wanted but I had no choice.
The carpet was a little dingy and a few cabinets in the kitchen were broke plus I was in need of a new refrigerator, but I chose to take it as is so I didn't have to pay a security deposit.

3:00 p.m.

I was sitting on the floor of the empty Living room eating a snack when I heard a knock at the front door. I knew exactly who it was, I got up and wobbled to the door and opened it.
A sexy ass tall, built lightskinned dude stood at my door step along with a chocolate medium height brother. They both were dressed in blue shirts and tan parts Looking good as shit.

"Hello We're here to deliver you furniture... Lexis right" the light skin boy said as he glanced down at his clipboard.
I nodded my head "Ok... Well let me get out ya way" I said stepping aside so they could start bringing stuff in.
I had pre-owned a bed,a two couch's living room set, two TV's and a dining room table big enough for 4 seats. Ms. Jones was nice enough to buy me a baby crib so that was one less thing I had to worry about.
Once they finished bringing the stuff in and helping me set up the lightskinned dude had me sign papers while the darkskinned one when to the truck.

"I'm Jewels by the way" he said. I felt his eyes watching me the whole time as I signed the papers, I blushed because I knew he liked what he seen.
"I'm Lexis as you already know" I said smiling at him.
"You single Lexis"? He asked taking a step closer to me. I took in the smell of his cologne damn he smell so good.
I shook my head yes shyly, and he started cheesing hard.

"Well you know when you drop... Holla at me baby girl" he said running his finger across my exposed belly before touching my face. I instantly felt chills form on my skin, he was sexy and even tho he was far from king he still looked good.

I watched him walk out the door Leaving and made a mentor note in my head to make him mine soon, even though it would be only temporary.