Chapter 2
The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
You used to send me loads of pictures when you was here. Pictures of us that we'd taken that day on your phone. Or pictures of your family meals. All those sorts of things. I've never deleted a single one, and I never will. Sometimes there the only things that get me through the day without cryin', because you always looked so happy. You were always happy. Or you seemed to be. Maybe you weren't and it was just a show you put on for me. Maybe you just felt bad for me because nobody else would love me, and you jus' wanted to try and make me feel better. I was happy with you. I loved you. I still love you. I know it's silly for me to say, but you've been gone for nearly 2 years. Yes we hadn't been together long, but you were the one that stole my heart, and you never gave it back. My heart belongs to you, and without you there's a big hole in my life. I feel so lonely without you here in me arms. Nothing will ever fill that gap again.
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long
I've stopped hanging put with Stephan. And my friend David. I just can't be around them. They remind me too much of you. Too many memories of the times we all spend together messing around, or having a kick about on the field playing a really bad game of football. Where me and you would always be so competitive and Stephan would throw a fit when he doesn't win. I'd just end up being miserable the whole day and so upset that when I got home I'd cry myself to sleep because I missed you so much, so I just stopped going out with them. Their always ringing me and saying "look mate, Decky wouldn't want you to be like this. He'd be upset that you're shutting yourself inside and not going out with your mates because he's not here." But it's hard you know. Having to try and live normally when all I can feel is an empty pit in my heart and to not be able to see you smile every day or hear your laugh, or even to have you cheer us up when I'm feelin' rotten. I just miss ya. I want you back Decky! I need you back!
It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?
'Cause I'm not fine at all
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape
'Cause I'm not fine at all
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Amnesia
CasualeWhen it's been almost 2 years since Dec left to go to London. How is Ant coping? Will he ever fill the hole in his life that has been left by Dec?
