How to be a bitch (English translation of Como ser una perra) By Srta.Tess

Chapter 15

                                                                        ~¿Do you still love me?~

I walked straight to the bathrooms and locked myself in one of the cubicles like the loser I used to be

The door opened, a group of juniors walked in the bathroom talking lively

- ¿Did you see the show in the main hallway? – One of them interrupted the chat

- ¡Of course! – The others answered

- They say that she only played with the cousin that she had been meeting with Brad in secret

- I couldn't blame her, those both are so hot

- ¡Right!

All of them laughed

- I heard

The door opened – That all of you should get a life – Rochelle's recognizable voice shut them up – Get in your own business

After a moment I heard them leaving and the door close again

- ¿Savannah?

- Leave me alone Rochelle – I lift my legs and hugged them

- You have to get out of there Sav...

- Just leave me alone

- I won't

- ¡Please!

- ¿You're not coming out?

- No

- Okay then – I heard her steps getting closer – I'll stay with you – I saw her shadow and how she sat in the floor at the other side of the door

I stayed quiet, I put my legs down and sat on the floor too – I didn't kiss him – I murmur while I rested my head on the door

- I know

- I... love Ethan – I whispered

- I know honey

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- ¿We're have you been? I have been looking for you everywhere – Nina got to us running she looked at Rochelle and then me - I finished taking the papers off – she smiled at me

I just nodded - ¿Have you seen Ethan?

- Savannah – Rochelle said

- ¿Have you?

She passed her looked from Rochelle to me, and the sigh – in his locker

I walked as fast as my legs let me, I had to explain everything to him. Just like Nina said, he was in front of his locker

I sigh and got closer to him – Ethan... - He gave me a cold look – Let me explain everything

- There's nothing to explain – he closed his locker so hard that it make me jump

- I didn't kiss him ¡Nothing happened!

- ¿Why didn't you tell me then? If nothing had happened

- I knew...I knew you would be upset

- ¡Of course I would have! But you didn't tell me

- You have to listen to me – I asked again – nothing happened, I push him away

- I don't want to – he passed beside me

- ¡Ethan please, listen to me!

He stopped and looked at me – I don't want to, I don't what to know what happened... I don't want to see you again – he turned around and started walking

- ¡¿Do you still love me?!

The question got out of my mouth without even think about it

He turned around and looked at me for a moment he stayed in silence, he just looked at me – I don't know – he finally said, he tensed his jaw, like it hurt him to say that, he looked down, and without anything else to say he walked away

My lips were shaking and I started to see blurry, I felt like I was going to fall apart right there. I didn't want that anyone else saw me cry, they couldn't see me bad, not again

I swallowed the lump in my throat and walk

- Savannah wait – someone took my arm

I turned to see who it was

- Let me go Brad

- I swear I didn't know Liz was going to do that

- ¡Let me go!

- Savannah, please listen to me I still lo...

I didn't let him finish, the palm on my hand against his cheek stop him

- Don't you dare to say that – I sigh – please just let me go

- I didn't want this to happen

- ¡Neither did I, Brad! I didn't want this to happen, I didn't want you to cheat on me with my best friend, I didn't want to break up with you, I didn't want things to end up this way

- I can fix it

- No, you can't – I shook my head - ¿Why don't you leave me alone? ¡¿Why don't you let me be happy?!

He looked at me without a word

- ¡FUCK, JUST ASWER ME!

- ¡Because you make me happy! – He took me from my shoulders, looked at my eyes and sigh – because I still love you

- If you loved me - In a sudden movement I managed to get out of his grip – you wouldn't had cheated on me, if you loved me as much as you say you do, you would let me be happy, with or without you

- I want you to be happy ¿You think I want to see you this way? But it hurts, it hurts seeing you happy with someone else – he sigh – with someone that is not me

I lifted my head and saw that his eyes started to turn red – I need you...

- Brad I'm sorry... I can't deal with tis right now – I started walking backwards – I just can't

I turned around and started running

I walked to the infirmary and lied saying that I had a headache, the nurse gave me a pass and I went back home. My parents weren't home and Alessa was out, I was happy, the last thing I wanted to do right now was giving explanations

I walked in my room closed the door and started crying slowly I sat in the floor

I felt bad

Hurt

Betrayed

An idiot

I felt just like the last time

- ¿Anna? – I heard a few knocks in the door

- ¿Yes? – I answer trying to get my voice not heard shaky

- I saw your car parked outside ¿Weren't you supposed to be at school?

- My head started hurting pretty bad

- I see... ¿Are you okay?

- I just need to sleep – I calm her down

- Okay – she answer – I'll be downstairs if you need something

- Thanks

I waited in silence until I heard the click of her heels going down the stairs, I stood up and went straight to the bed

I just had to sleep, just close my eyes and pretend nothing had happened. Pretend that all was just a nightmare