Emotionless (Septiplier)

Part 9

~Sean~

Mark and I went back to class once the bell rung. Mark practically skipped down the hallway and I sluggishly followed him. Sharing emotions with someone else can really drain a person. I sighed as Mark smiled beautifully wishing me a goodbye before turning into his next class. I smiled weakly back and shuffled to my classroom located down the hall.

That class was surprisingly quiet today, and my brain was also quiet despite what happened today. I didn't think about why because like I said, it was very quiet up top at that moment. I sighed as some worksheet was passed around for the students to work on. 

As the class started on their worksheets, I was looking at the page for a long time. I didn't feel quite right. My eyes wouldn't focus on the page and everything felt like it was spinning around me. I felt cold and jittery. My fingertips tingled and I started going in and out of consciousness. 

Then everything went away. The tingles and the cold. I was conscious and I had the ability to focus. But with all that back, I just felt  slightly empty. It was like I was being hollowed out by something very slowly. I felt like I was missing a piece, like an incomplete jigsaw puzzle, or a vase with a chip in it.  Something was missing and I wasn't entirely sure what. 

~Time Skip~

It's night time and all I'm doing is laying in my bed feeling incomplete. The moons soft glow creeping closer to me as I lay there, feeling strange, upset even. Or maybe I was feeling nothing at all, but of course that's not true. I'm the only one that can feel, well I used to be now Mark has joined me, but only slightly. 

I think of Mark. How happy he seemed after I did that for him. I wanted to be smile at that thought, the thought of a happy Mark, but I couldn't and I'm not sure why. Am I too tired? Am I too selfish? I decided to try to go to bed and think about it in the morning.

~Time Skip (again)~

The next morning had come all too quickly. The soft glow of the moon was replaced with the bright morning sunshine. I slid out of bed, got dressed and walked downstairs. The regular schedule took place and there I was at school in my seat.

It wasn't long before Mark strode in with a smile as bright as the sun and slid into the seat next to mine. He greeted me happily and with a hug.

"Hello Sean!" I waved back with a small 

"Hi." 

"How are you?" Mark asked. Once those words passed his lips they were hanging in the air. My brain couldn't process them. I never thought I would ever hear those words. My mind went blank when trying to answer because of the unfamiliarity of this.

"I'm-I'm not sure." I said tripping over my words. Mark just nodded as if he understood and turned to face the front of the room as class started. I also turned forward but my attention was elsewhere. I was still caught up on Mark's words. 

I wasn't sure about how I felt about them. I thought I liked them but I don't feel something signifying that I indeed like them. It's just a whole bunch of questions piling up as well as exhaustion from yesterday. Everything was confusing. What is happening to me and why? 

I shook my head and looked over at Mark. He looked back at me and smiled. I turned back thinking about this whole situation. Maybe, just maybe. 

~Mark~

It was almost lunchtime when I heard a voice coming from beside me.

"Hey, do you want to do that again today?" I turned around and saw Sean speaking to me. I smiled and nodded. 

"Alright then, we'll go to the library once the bell rings." I nodded again in acknowledgement and turned and waited patiently for the bell to screech its song. Once it sounded, I hopped up and started walking quickly toward the library with Sean close behind. 

Soon we were in the mostly vacant library in the same spot as we were yesterday. Sean took a deep breath and grabbed my hand gently. I wasn't sure what he was going to give me today, but I was excited for whatever it was. 

We sat across from each other with our hands clasped together and our knees touching. We were there for a moment before I felt the emotion seep from his hands into mine. This one felt different from the happy one I felt yesterday. It felt like my blood was boiling up and an intense heat was spreading through my body and I felt the smile leave my face. I started to grab onto Sean's hands more tightly and I ground my teeth together. 

I wasn't sure what I was feeling and I wasn't sure I liked it. I looked around in whatever state I was in and saw a similar color to the one yesterday. I remembered Sean called the one yesterday orange, this one was like a darker orange. 

When I looked back at Sean, his eyes were open again and I looked at him strangely. I wasn't sure what this was but it made Sean look bad, and one side of me couldn't help but hate that.

Sup, I'm back after way too long. I have excuses though example last weekend was the homecoming dance. I went with a 'date' some dude asked me to homecoming and I said yes and it was very awkward the whole time. Moving on, tomorrow I have off because of Columbus day (time to celebrate a guy who murder a bunch of Indians!! Whoop!!!) also tomorrow I have MARKS TOUR OMFG I'M SO EXCITED I CANT EVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So hope you enjoyed, bye!!