I'm Fine

10th August, 2017

What Jayce told me that morning had me tossing and turning at night. There were a lot of misconceptions that he cleared for me about life after death. It was so different from what I had seen, heard, and learnt about from movies. Everything was a lot more complicated.

Undead entities had ranks. Their realm was built so that they could only interact with beings above their rank. Jayce, for some reason, had a very high rank. He explained that it was because he had a purpose and a living to protect.

Also since he used to be a human.

He couldn't tell me where Alyssa and Kat were, though. He honestly didn't know about them. But I figured just because you were dead didn't mean you had the entire world's knowledge bestowed upon you.

Jayce had told me that the ranking was important in our case. For an unknown reason, humans could interact with demons because their ranking rose within the realm of the dead — but their interactions were limited to a link they had between demon, or being, and human. The same rules applied to Jayce, and more. He could interact with humans he preferred to, but not the demons. Meaning he could help me torment Anna, and still go unscathed by the hands of demons, who were Anna's guardians.

Demons were a lot weaker than I had ever thought. They were locked by rules, regulations, and it seems like demons were the kind of beings that never broke rules or laws.

I turned over in bed and stared up at the ceiling.

Alyssa died protecting us. Kat died protecting us.

Jayce died protecting us.

Pulling my sheets away and getting off my bed, I switch on my room light before heading to my mirror. Lifting up my pajama shirt, I ran a light finger over the scar across my abdomen from when a knife had slashed me. The exact moment it had happened, I had thought that my guts would spill out all over the place. It had been excruciatingly painful and I passed out from the pain — I remembered. That was the last time I saw any of my friends.

While I recovered in the hospital, Alyssa had visited me. But I had never been strong enough to see her. Not until she died.

And then I wasn't invited to the funeral.

Who does that?!

My parents had assured me that it was probably a mistake, my father especially. For some reason, my father seemed insistent that Anna was very distraught over the deaths of her children.

And Kat's body was never found.

Jayce was buried early.

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Ugh Ronnie is more emotional than I thought.

Also, just came back from my exam and I've been crying ever since guys I have to redo this dumb paper I can't even deal with this right now this is horrible.

I skipped two questions for later and did them but while doing one last recheck while the invigilators collected the paper, I saw that I had completely overlooked the last two questions and now I just feel like absolute crap I'm gonna go cry some more guys.

My exams' are pretty important to me since I'm running on a very constricted time span and just.

Ugh.

Edexcel.

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