Chapter 4- I felt a little alive.

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Once we were out of the classroom, I met up with two people - A guy and a girl. The guy looked the type that flirts with girls and that has no shame on whatsoever - Also with a positive view on life constantly, even in the darkest and worst moments. The girl, she was the complete opposite. Her eyes were cold, not a single trace of emotion or kindness seemed to show on them. She seemed like she was always going to see people walking away from her. Simply stone cold. The weirdest part about those two? They were dating. Or atleast, were almost so.
" These are my two friends, Kaito Momota and Maki Harukawa. I hope you get to be friends with them too uhmn.. "
Saihara spoke with his usual sweet and quiet tone, thinking to himself. He was trying to guess my name, supposedly. Perhaps, I should tell a fake name, I am a liar after all! But, at the very least I need to have some people to trust, don't I? I do. Certainly.
" Kokichi Ouma. The Ultimate Supreme Leader! "
I stated excitedly, posing as I proceeded to brag mentally about my talent. Though some people were suspectful of such talent - It was an actual thing. Or atleast that is what I am told. But yeah, since it seems convincing enough I guess I can believe it.
" Oh... Right, Ouma-kun. I really
hope we can be friends...? "
He spoke once again, lightly pushing his cap down to hide his face, that for an unknown reason was softly blushing. It was rather noticeable even behind his black baseball cap, why did he wear that stupid thig anyways? Was he afraid of looking at people or something? That's stupid. Don't do that. Just face your fears straight forward - Ooor ~ Create a mask! Make yourself seem like you fear nothing, when in actuality, you have invisible tears streaming down your face - your heart broken, your body numb, your vision blurry. Just fake everything! I can promise you, it will be just fine! You can create so many masks, fake all sort of emotions! And as long as you have that mask on, nobody can find out what you really feel, nobody can tell so. Not a single person has yet found out my mask, this mask I put on of an evil supreme leader, and a liar. In actuality, I have to say, I am rather comforted with my life, but there were times when I felt like I was dying bit by bit, a piece of me was taken away from me and I felt dead inside, yet, I was with closed doors. Locked inside a dark room, with no keys. Keeping my feelings hidden, unease to do so but pushing myself forward to keep going, pretending everything was perfectly fine when in fact, it was not. Whenever I was alone, I felt the mask crack and myself fall apart. Though, everyday morning, I would pick up the pieces of this mask, put them together once again and force myself to feel happy.
But oh well, my feelings couldn't matter less at a time? It took me a while to notice, but Saihara had been calling out for me.
" Hey, Ouma-kun.. Ouma kun! "
He spoke rather loudly this time, I was dozing off in thought once again just this day. I really am getting badly distracted, and honestly, this is not very fun. Anyhow, I must get back to reality. Wake up, Kokichi.
" Huh? Oh sorry, I dozed off, Saihara-chan. "
I replied with this usual cheerful tone, clearing my mind completely. There was no time to be distracted by my stupid negativity. I had to... Go and socialize while I can. Before I get completely, utterly hated. 'Till some people get so mad at me they will want to scatter my body in parts. Everywhere I went, most of the school hated me, but I had a few allies, that sadly I... Had to leave behind. DICE, right? Because the world is a chess board - We are meant to play with it. The king, that is me, the Ultimate Supreme Leader. My destiny is to win over the world, and be hated at the same time.
Oh well, whatever, I'll make Saihara-chan my partner in crime. That will work well.
" Right, right ~We are bestest of friends now, ooookay? "
I said excitedly, and before he could reply, I continued my sentence.
" You don't have the right to refuse this great offer. Anyhow ~ We spent more time than we should outside here. The bell is gonna ring! "
I exclaimed once again, taking hold of his hand in mine and guiding us inside the classroom, ignoring new people coming to talk to us, we seated ourselves in the corner of the room 2 minutes before the bell rung. New people came in, and soon enough more people came in, along with the teacher...

((A/N: holy shit 612 reads. Wth guys??? 35 votes???? How?? Thank you for reading my garbage that I barely update, lol. I lack of inspiration most of the time, so I just need some time to refill the gay inside of me. Thank you for being so patient. I will try my best. ))

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