Trying not to die

Depressed

I was very upset with myself for letting that happen and still am, I had an appointment and I was diagnosed with mild depression after 3-4 years of dealing with it. I told my girlfriend and she said she had depression too so "perfect match"!

A few months past and it's November, a girl named A (lol comment if u get it, her name starts with a A so) was spreading rumors about me and my girlfriend and it was getting to me so I started to self harm. Then a little bit later in the month I was about to start a new pill for my depression bc my mood was everywhere. My girlfriend was thinking about killing her self and at the time I thought I was in love with her so I said I was going to kill myself too.

She didn't know I was really going to and she didn't do it but I did. I swallowed 30 pills and then was dropped off at my bffs house without anyone knowing what I did. I became really shaky bc there was caffeine in these migraine pills I took and my stomach felt upside down.