Guys. Believe it or not... I was EXTREMELY weird...
Now I know what your thinking "OMG same 😂 I'm so weird!"
No no no....
I was so weird and socially awkward and not caring if I'm cool or not....
I had a bob hair cut.... and those hair cuts look good on people... but NOT me.
And I would always say random and weird things... and no one would laugh... and then I would be like "Oh geez no one cares better not do that again"
And I would do it again.
This was before I found out about the pals and social media...
I think I was in grade... 6??
The reason I question this is because I have always had this... problem.
All throughout my elementary school (k-7th grade) I had this thing called shyness... and I didn't talk to anyone and things kinda sucked. But I didn't realize it at the time... because AGAIN... I was weird and blind. (I'm not really blind... I just didn't see the weird stuff I did and how little friends I had)
I was always happy. I don't even know how. I only had one friend up until grade 5. And my one friend would always fight with me. In grade 5 I was in a grade 5/6 split. There was only 8 grade 5s and we were kinda spoiled. So we all became friends. So that year was a good year.
Grade 6... my life changed. My best friend who I have had for all of elementary... suddenly turned on me. We had always gotten in fights and we had always had a bad relationship but when we were acting like friends it was amazing. Once we got in a huge fight and she started hanging out with this other girl and they started bullying me... and me being weird... I imagined is as a movie... so I bullied back. I wanted attention and so did they. But that wasn't the only drama. Just before me and my friend got in a fight my teacher got cancer. She was fine but she couldn't go to school. We had substitutes for a while... so we took advantage of that and that's how the drama started.
We finally found our favourite sub teacher and we didn't want her to go. So she didn't! She stayed our teacher till the end of the school year! That teacher helped us through the drama. When the year ended... I had more friends! At the end of the year our whole class was in tears because we had to say goodbye to our teacher. She was going to the high school.
Grade 7 came around and I had this group of friends I was determined to stay with the whole year. We got into our new class room and my old friend and her new friend... didn't start any drama. I was so scared it would start again. I avoided them at all costs. But no drama started.
I became friends with these other girls. (Even though I said I would stay with the same people)
Around this time I discovered YouTube gamers. The first Youtuber I watched was Dantdm. But i was embarrassed to say I watched him cuz he was a kid Youtuber and my class was really mature. Honestly he would never be my favourite all the time bc I was embarrassed...
Anyways... The girls I became friends with were friends with the girl who was friends with my old friend.... and I became BEST FRIENDS WITH HER! We are still best friends right now. So then I finally felt like I belonged somewhere... I'm not an outcast anymore.
Then I found Denis. I watched his video and at first I thought he was extremely cringy. I went to school the next day and I was like "I saw this youtuber and he was so cringy and he loves cats and he was leaving wierd and.... he wait a sec this guy isn't that bad..."
I went home and watched him again. The first videos I watched of his were his "what's wrong with ROBLOX guests?" Or "what's wrong with ROBLOX noobs?"
Even though I was finally happy with my look and friends... I still felt like something was wrong...
Then I found social media
My first social media was actually musical.ly
But then I found wattpad.
This new social media let me be whoever I wanted to be! So I became the Kat you know and love...
Or at least you thought you knew....
I never had purple hair
I never wore cool clothes
But I wanted to be the internet me. I was so much cooler and better on the internet.
And maybe in the end it didn't matter... but i didn't want to be this.... pink loving, girly girl, babyish kid anymore.
Grade 8: I finally became me
The person I was searching for inside me.... the real me... was in the person I wanted to be... Kat.
I wanted to be Kat. The internet me. Yesterday I achieved that dream. I dyed my hair a dark purple... and I went to school today feeling so confident!
Math class: period 2: today
I went into the quiet room or whatever u call it... and i had to be told to stop talking! Normally I never talk!
After the person who was watching us took us back to the class he turned to the teacher and said "She talked!!!" I felt so happy. Like I'm not the shy girl anymore. I'm still shy... but that was pretty cool.
So yeah... my hair is purple!
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