Hey...
It's Kat...
A lot of major events happened in the past few days that I really need to get off my chest... and I need to take the stress off so this is how I'm dealing with it.
So there was these people...
I'm going to keep them anonymous cuz they would hate me more if I said there names...
And we would chat on discord.
I won't go into detail for their sake.
But let's just say things started getting religious...
And as much as I hate to say it...
I thought it was hilarious.
And if you know me... I deal with things that are stressful (and this is..) by making a joke out of it...
But they didn't understand... (probably cuz I didn't tell them...) .. and one of them said there would be consequences....
The next day my phone case breaks.
I still didn't take it seriously....
Today...
I get in a fight with one of them... the one who was closest to me....
And... I can't say what happened... it would be disrespectful and.... I can't do that...
I don't wanna repeat it.
But... it hurt.
It hurt both of us....
My punishment... my... sin..
And yet she suffers as well....
Because of me.
And I'm having very mixed feelings about this....
My life was fine before this.... I didn't pray and I never went to church....
But when this happens...
It seems like it will only get worse if I don't pray...
So it's like I have to pray... even tho I went a good chunk of my life without praying....
...Just for the bad stuff to stop...
Also... I said this would be a vent to...
Cuz now I feel so freakin guilty...
Like.. she's hurting because of me...
I left the group chat...
I might even delete discord...
Probably not.. but I might...
Anyways...
A lot of drama happening in my life rn....
Sorry if I'm not on here a lot...
Just... taking a break.
Also...
No matter what happens in your life.... just know that... it will get better. Over time it will be ok.... even if it doesn't feel like it.
And it ok to joke around when things get stressful.... it could be your way of dealing with the problem....
Trying to make you feel better... by joking around...
You can get over anything that life throws at you.... you just need to be strong...
And jam out to Shakira while vacuuming and no ones around (;
