Ok so I'm just going to go on a major vent / rant
I'll be fine soon but I need to get this out of brain (kinda)
You can ignore this (I seriously don't need any advice or anything like that. You don't have to comment... and if you want to comment something I guess just comment a heart or something like that)
Ok so recently I've been HATING school
Why?
Because I'm a failure and I'm "irresponsible"
And I'm constantly being told this by one of my close friends. I don't think she realizes how much it effects me (Cuz it actually really hurts...) and i don't know how I'm going to tell her without seeming bitchy. I'll try
Also... it's actually REALLY hard for me to work in class on something I DONT WANT TO DO. I see no point in doing it therefor I DONT DO IT.
And there's more reasons.
I'm not what my school would call "a mindful person"
My mind is CONSTANTLY THINKING about EVERYTHING. Especially when something is happening in my life.
Because of my cluttered mind it's really hard to focus.
Oh and we can't forget about my procrastination.
I procrastinate EVERYTHING. So much that I actually DONT do homework.
I blame my mind.
And my awful heath.
I'm so unhealthy rn I feel like I shouldn't be going to school because I NEED TO FOCUS ON MY HEATH.
It's either focus on school or heath and I CANT do both.
I'm trying so hard right now to juggle both my heath and school and it's putting a lot of stress on me.
My life is just really stressful.
I don't do work in class and I don't do homework and I always forget everything and my mind is so cluttered I can't think strait anymore and this frickin phone ain't helping cuz it's "frying" my brain cells but it's the only thing in my life that isn't stressful besides sleep / night time and even at night my life is stressful because one of my friends mom took her phone away and she hasn't texted me or any of her friends but she's online on Instagram and I don't know if I feel ignored or betrayed and I'm actually missing her a lot but at the same time I'm not really Cuz she was also stressing my life out a bit cuz of something else and this is exactly what I'm talking about my life being stressful
My mind is a messsssssss
I'm just ALWAYS thinking about EVERYTHING.
Life is hard my dudes. But I'll keep trying.
One day it will get easier.
Oki I'm done venting
Kat out 😜
