Bullied By The Marauders

Chapter 14

Classes, as usual, were boring.

I just couldn't pay attention to any of them. I struggled to read the textbook and I am too shy to ask Lily or Marlene or Alice.

Anyway Mar and Alice won't help me, they can't stand textbooks.

And this year the textbooks were extra fat, maybe because it was our last year EVER.

I hoped I would return for teaching, though.

Maybe I could take up History Of Magic, so younger ones won't have to go through that boring bastard.

Tomorrow was New Year’s, which means the ball, which means Potter asking out Lily, which means Lily breaking his “poor” heart,  which means me being jealous about not having a date which means me staying alone in the dorm.

Oh, I moved back to the dorm. (I was forced to.)

I have the bed next to the window.

It was raining AND it was a Saturday. Everyone was staying in school (except for the Prewetts probably and the Marauders. They were probably in Hogsmeade.)

It was funny how I knew a lot of people in the school, but most of them didn't even pay attention to me. They never noticed. To them, I was just in the background.

Just in the background.

Just existing.

JUST THERE.

I hate it.

But I could tolerate it. So it was fine.

I was staying in the dorm, the girls were in the Common Room. Doing Merlin knows what.

It's funny that during the time the Marauders used to bully me, they never thought of the possibility that I could be self harming that I could be suicidal, that I could commit suicide.

No, they just went on. Not caring. Not giving a fuck. When in fact they should've.

I don't feel sad for myself. I feel angry at myself. For not standing up, for not doing what was right, for not protecting myself.

Lily, Marlene and Alice did nothing. They watched from afar. They comforted in private. But they weren't emotionally there for me.

I wasn't there for myself, why would others be there for me?

I could hear the voices coming from downstairs, and all of a sudden, I feel jealousy surging through my veins.

Jealousy for the fact that Lily, Alice and Marlene were having fun without me.

Jealous because everyone seems to have fun without me.

It's like I'm not even needed anymore.

The girls haven't even come to check on me once.

They haven't come and asked, 'Do you want to come down?' or 'Come on, let's go down to the Common Room, it's cost and warm in there' or 'D come on don't be a child, enough of tantrums.'

No, they haven't said a single word.

I haven't even spoken to them the whole day.

Was I invisible all of a sudden?

There were knocks on the door. I dinner under my bed, hiding there.

‘Diana?’ that was Potter’s voice.

He came in. I knew because I could hear his footsteps cream on the word floor.

I came out of my hiding place.

‘Yeah?’ his back was turned to me, so he could see me.

He jumped nearly a meter high.

I laughed.

‘Come down.’ he said.

I shook my head. ‘No.’

‘Why?’

‘Because it is not like anything is going to change.’

In the end, he dragged me down. The Marauders we're shooting with Lily, Mar and Alice.

They were playing Exploding Snap.

Except for Sirius and Alice. They were playing Wizard’s Chess.

‘Hi.’ I said.

They greeted me back.

‘Do you want to play a game?’ Remus asked.

‘Exploding Snap,’ I said. Because I am an expert.

The first time in many months, I was finally happy.

And I liked it.

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