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Chapter 6 - Life changing

My eyes flutter open to find my self staring up at a White ceiling . A flash of memory comes back to me . The accident . I jolt up in bed only to realise I'm not in my own bed , I'm in the hospital . I glance down at my body all sorts of wires hooked up to me and there are dark purple  brushing and cuts on my left arm ,  there's a lilac cast on my right arm and my whole body aces . Suddenly the pain shoots through me all at once .
I let out a scream of pain I feel like my body is trying to rip itself apart and doctors come rushing in to my aid shocked to see that I'm awake . Then again everything goes black .

My eyelids peel them selves open to revel an extremely concerned looking James at the end of my bed his face is bruised he has a black every and there's a cast on his nose that I can only assume is broken .
"James ?" His head snaps up to the sound of my voice . He seems completely numb .
"Hey ? How are you feeling ?" He says trying to put on a brave face but I can see right through it .The door slams open breaking my train of thought . It's no other than Ethan .
"Well you know how to make a fucking dramatic entrance then " I smile
" Well I see that you're awake and feeling good " Ethan replays rolling his eyes half smiling .
"And still sarcastic as ever ." I say giving him a weak smile "I feel like shit ." I say grimacing at the pain shooting through my body .
"I'm not surprised you have been asleep for 2 weeks and that car hit yours pretty hard ." Ethan says quietly
"What !" I say stunned "2 fuckin weeks !"
"Yeah we didn't know if you where going to wake up"James states staring blankly at a wall .
"Where is mum and Chase ? " I say biting back a yawn .as the memories come flooding back .
"Not now Taylor we need to focus on you for now ." James says his face looking pale .
"James where the fuck is our mum and my twin !" I say my voice rising with panic
"Taylor I'm sorry .." He stammers his voice laced with pain .
"CHASE !!!! MUM !" I find my self automatically screaming my throat burning
"CHASE!!" My panic is rising "MUMMY" I scream my body wracking with sobs
"Shhh calm down "Ethan whispers rubbing my back
"I WILL NOT FUCKING CALM DOWN" I mange to scream between sobs my panic rising .

My hospital room door flings open to reveal Chase is face looks bruised and battered with a few cuts his leg is in a black cast and he's gripping his crutches grimacing in pain . He's followed by a team of doctors begging  him to go back to his bed .I practically jump out of my hospital bed forgetting that I'm still connected to machines and try to run over to Chase only to fall backwards .
"Fuck " I mutter "but thank fuck you're okay Chase I was so worried about you - and " I feel the tears pricking my eyes my voice breaking .
"I know .." He says stumbling over to me and dropping in the floor next to me .

He wraps me up in a hug no words needed while I cry into his top soaking in completely while he hugs me tight .. We both needed this no one would ever understand our bond I'm pretty sure we can't live without each other Chase is my other half I don't have the same bond with anyone else . He's my twin after all .
"Taylor ... I can feel that you're worried and upset trust me I am too but my head is fucking banging and this is one of those moments when I wish we didn't feel each other's emotions !" He says half heartedly
"Wow way to ruin a moment Chase ." I laugh still crying a little "but seriously Sorry .." I mutter relaxing a little . At least he's okay .. At least we are all okay .

Then I remember my mum . I glance up at one of the doctors "wheres my mum " I mange to croak out between sobs
"I don't think this is the right time " he stammers
"No where is my mum I need to know ." My vice filled with plead and worry
"I'm so sorry .. But you're mum Samantha Dean is dead . The driver of the other vehicle was drunk She died apon impact in the accident there was nothing we could do ." His voice filled with remorse
"What ? No ? You must have her confused she has to be okay she has to be .." I can hear the desperation in my own voice
"I'm so sorry .." The doctor says "I'll give you all a minute " and with that he walks out of the door .

I feel the presence of Ethan and James jointing mine and Chases hug on the floor . We're all sobbing but me more I was practically howling in pain even though I wasn't in any physically that had all gone numb now it was emotional and mental my heart was broken . I could tell the boys where staying to be strong for me .
This was our family now . And where was my Dad ? No where to be found . Although I knew where he was probably drowning in work to ease the pain letting us deal with it all on our own . Or he hasn't even bothered to check up on us . The boys are the only proper family I felt like I have now and Im never letting go .The words of the Doctor kept ringing in my ears causing me to cry more . Drunk driver he said . Died apon impact he said .Nothing they could do he said.