My soldier, Her Irish Angel

Chapter 18

"In a way fighting was just like using magic. You said the words, and they altered the universe. By merely speaking you could create damage and pain, cause tears to fall, drive people away, make yourself feel better, make your life worse."

― Lev Grossman, The Magicians

Peter's Pov

"Kid, I don't see the issue here?"

I look at four, I know she get's kind of pissed when I call her kid but not like this. She looked at me pleadingly not to do this. I just don't get it if Niall wants to play a game and do something stupid then so be it. It's his life, not only that, I get she cares for him. I understand she doesn't want him hurt but the thing is he'll learn if he does, that four will have his back.

"Peter" She started off trying, she never speaks to me harshly, it made me feel like a part of her still is Haley. "Would you send any of our lost boys into this knowing that they weren't, hell if they didn't know what they were getting into?"

On the outside, you would have thought she was trying to be scary, but if you'd look into her eyes you'd see how concerned she was. I don't want to push it much since we aren't the normal siblings. We don't fight, and I don't want to start that today.

"Look H, Niall knows what he is getting into-"

"No he doesn't, he doesn't know how to defend himself, and I can't let him get hurt, what type of person would I be?"

"The type that let's a grown man make his own decision!" I start picking up my voice, and Kid looked at me differently for a moment. You wouldn't notice it but if you were someone else, but I know that look, I could notice it in a heartbeat.

"Peter," she internally flinched, we didn't fight, much but that was all it took four might be strong but she's an outer shell that is made of glass.

She saw the person she feared most in, and that's why she ran away. A tear fell out of my eye, Fuck! Why did he damn me! Why do I have to look exactly like Malcolm!

I start to go after her when Niall stops me, "I'll go I started this I'll fix this"

I listen Four was never one for talking to people when she is upset not even me, maybe he could try to calm her down. What good would I do anyway all I remind her off is our dead father.

I see the girls and rest of the boys run after her and I turn to the lost and say, "I apologize guys the game will have to be moved to tomorrow"

After that I go to my tent, I see Felix try to get everyone back to their jobs, and such. Then I reach my cot, I just lay on it looking at the ceiling. I then hear Felix's boot against the ground, no one else would try to go here except him and kid, it's why I know it's him.

"Pan?"

"How many times do I have to tell you, you're my best friend start calling me by my first name!" I try to say jokingly.

Felix sits a foot away from me, chuckling "You okay?"

"Sure, if scaring my little sister back into the hole she tries to climb out of every day is okay, then yeah"

Felix gives me the eye "No, I'm not okay, but I don't therapy either."

"Look, Pan, I'm not asking for you to tell me anything, but the girls do say it's nice to have a friend, so I'll be here as comfort, to listen or both. Yeah?"

I nod my head as I let one more tear fall down my cheek, thanks, Felix, for being my best friend. I turn my head to the side facing the wall and close my eyes, I just want to apologize to my sister, I want to check on her but I know it won't do much good right now. She needs someone to lean on and rant on and I used to be that person because her quarrel has never been with me. I close my eyes trying to forget everything, if only (Remember to add funny comment here)