getting through

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its completely silent as i rest my head against the tree waiting for Jacob to wake up.there is no buzz of electricity as there usually is in the usually crowded new York full of hippies ,peacemakers,businessman and such.oh one more thing those people were alive not laid in heaps on the side of the street.i hear the rustling of leaves which means Jacob is awake.''good......night i guess'' i say looking out to the dark horizon.''OK well ill wake you when the sun starts to rise''.i nod then lay back on my bag closing my eyes.every attempt i make to sleep doesn't work.my mind is filled with flashes of my dad going limp on the ground.i knew my mom was going to die she was helpless but my dad i thought he was going to stick with me until the end and we would start a new family.i never cared much for my mom.some girls are born with this bond with there mother i just don't get.i popped out of her and everything but she was more of an acquaintance.i sit back up and look at Jacob.''i don't like people staring at me '' he says without looking at me.''don't flatter yourself I'm just thinking''.''this is the part in the books where i ask you what your thinking ,we bond and fall in love then one of us ends up dieing'' he says looking at me.'' this can also be the part in the books where we bond and then one of us ends up being a traitor and killing the other''.''i wonder which one of us is the traitor'' he says dryly.'' i wonder which one of us dies first''.''i just woke up so apocalypse or not I'm not a morning person,so stop being a bitch''.''look at us..bonding and all''.''ha,ha'' he responds.it goes silent then he turns away.''do you read'' i ask i don't know why .we're about to die and i ask the only boy who might still have his mind in new York if he reads.he gives me a are-you-serious look then turns away.i lean back against the tree and start day dreaming.''yea'' Jacob says out of no where.remembering the earlier topic.''whats your favorite'' i say .''between the infernal devices and the divergent series i don't know''.i never thought anyone as good looking as him would read.what hes hot in this mysterious bad boy type of way but hes still an asshole.

we go on a full blown conversation about how he thinks tris is needy and i think four is selfish.or how Tessa is a prude and will is too guarded to care.that's something we could both agree on.some how it ended with him screaming at me because he didn't finish the last book and i told him will died.''i didn't know ,when you said the series i assumed that you read the whole thing''.''well i didn't and now i know you can come back from being a silent brother''.it goes silent for a few minuets not the awkward type of silence.''you don't smile much do you'' he says looking at me.''no that ended when this started and there is no reason to be smiling''.''well ill get you to smile one of these days and you'll thank me''.''your very bipolar you know that right''.''really enlighten me'' he says sarcastically.''one minute your calling me a bitch and the next your telling me to smile'' i ignore his sarcasm.''to bad we wont be getting a diagnosis since all the doctors in a five mile radius are probably dead''.''you know just how to lighten the mood'' i mumble.''then why don't you go to sleep ,i wont bother you in your dreams''.i look everywhere but him.''nightmares huh?'' he laughs.i glare at him and he tries to make a straight face and fails.i pull out a gun i wont shot him but just to scare him .i see my brother moving beside me and put the gun away.''good morning'' i say to him and he nods his head then looks over to Jacob.i almost laugh at the look he gives him full of hate.

its been an hour of walking I've walked longer but not under these conditions.it seems like every store we come across has been raided and the only thing left on the shelves are hummus.i don't blame them no one says grab the hummus in a near death experience.Jacob insist on helping me learn how to shot a gun with a silencer the second we find the safe house.''how do you know its still there'' i ask.''it is or else,its only been five days since my family left and not much can happen in five days''.i choose not to point out his use of left instead of died but i can tell its a sore subject.''actually allot can happen in a five days '' i say thinking of the day before this started.everything was fine the only thing interesting on the news was about these trees that didn't look right and people were checking if they're are poisonous or some shit.my thoughts are disrupted as i bit of water falls on my cheek.''ew you spit on me'' i say looking towards Jacob.''i did not spit on you'' he says looking up at the sky.''this is fucking great'' i say as dark clouds roll over the building tops.its raining