getting through

the great depression

''we're not hot wiring a car'' i say sternly.''your so boring do you have any better ideas''.i raise  my eyebrow.''what happened the last time you asked that''.''you got lucky'' i start searching the car.''do you even know how to drive'' i say still searching.''i got my permit'' he says more like asking.''you don't know how to drive '' i say stopping my search.''i just turned seventeen do you''.''yea but only with my dad in the car''.''well your dads not here'' i scrunch up my noise.''sorry, i didn't mean it like that'' he apologizes.''what are you looking for'' he says.''a key'' i mumble while checking under his seat.i finally find the key under the carpet.''how do you do that ?''.''do what'' .''find another ,safer way around everything''.i do,do that i mean i am the goddess of wisdom and war and all.get it Athena...no okay.'' i tend to over think allot cause i don't want to die the dumbest way and all'' . he scoffs clearly taking what i said personally.''should we go'' he says.''yea,move I'm driving''.he nods ''climb over me'' i look to see if he was serious he clearly was.''OK'' i say hesitantly.he now has a perfect view of my butt as he moves over.what is the worst thing that can happen.we can crash,i think as i start driving.

about two ran over trash cans ago my brother woke up and Jacob started laughing and i started screaming.'' i don't know what I'm doing please help'' i cry.''i thought you drive with your father in the car'' Jacob laughs.''out the driveway ! '' and then Cameron starts laugh.''can you try to drive straight'' he laughs.''okay okay ill drive hit the breaks''.i do and then the car lurches forward and halts into a stop. i finally control my breathing and look over to the two laughing messes in the car.''i could've died'' i say then start laughing.

my brother goes to sleep again .hes been sleeping allot since the death of our parents i guess that's how he mourns.me on the other hand i haven't slept in a while Jacob drives slowly but surly but slowly around the many dead people on the road occasionally running over some people.''you laughed but it didn't reach your eyes'' he said randomly.I'm back to sitting morosely in my corner of the car.i roll my eyes .''what do you want to do''.''survive'' i say simply knowing what he means.''okay you survive this then what''.''i survive the rest of my life''.''you don't get it, you wont live-- you'll survive but you wont live'' he says.you cant die i think of my fathers words.''well doctor Phil, thanks but i don't need a heart to heart right now''.he ignores me and continues talking.''your gonna die if you don't try to find the good in this''.'' the good ?! that's like finding the good in the great depression,if there is good its not here'' i say trying to keep my voice down.''your blinded by all the bad shit that's going on right now''.''sometimes i wish you went back to being the asshole you were the first day i met you''.''you thought i was an asshole I'm so glad that's what i was going for''.i look over to him and hes grinning.''oh god''.''tell me about yourself'' he says.''my name is Athena marks,my nicknames consist of tee and Tina''.he laughs ''sorry ,hmm what are your talents''.''umm,i used to write and i do i few acting classes''.''what's your favorite color''.''gray'' he gives me a look.''your favorite color is gray ?''.''not dark gray but the gray the clouds turn right before it rains or right before the sun comes up ''.he chuckles and stares at me lost in thought.''what'' i start to blush.''nothing,we should go'' he says.i just realize he stopped the car while we were talking how caring of him.he starts driving and i watch as rain drops fall against the window.i fall into a halfway sleep that I've mastered during the many hours of math classes