Beyblade Burst Years And Years

Haunting me

Miyu's POV:
Its still haunting me like a ghost. The memory of Ash demanding me to leave.

It just wont seem to go away.

I hope Asher wasnt in the position i am right now.

At that time we were all in a really uncomforable spot. Even if Zac didnt talk that much he still seemed to try and stay away from the problem.

If i was correct, im meters away from when we last spoke.

I couldnt get far.

Only because my heart-ached.

The sentence hovering my mind. Clouding up the sunshine.

Her exact words can terrify any living-thing.

"I dont give a damn, LEAVE NOW" was what she said. In my face. It was so embaressing that Zac, Asher, and Sisco had to witness that.

It cant go away!

I try to think of other topics but deep down inside i know im just running away from it. Just like what Ash said, im a coward.

I cant seem to do anything....because im weak.

I cant face the thoughts of my own because im scared.

As if right now, no one can forgive me. I almost caused a little kids life.

At this rate im unforgiven.

I ended up hurting someone else because im a monster.

I always tried to put other people's problem before mine. But theres no one else here. Ive already recked them.

But i didnt know facing my own deeds would be like this hell of a torture.

People from my childhood think as me of a ray of sunshine but back then, my bestfriend didnt even know, im already almost done falling apart.

Am i really this desperate to be forgiven. That im saying all this? I havent brought this topic up to my head in years. And here i was...walking up a mountain, talking to myself like a crazy woman.

I lost all hope of faith to find eachother and hopefully make it our of this situation alive.

Were split up. Were falling apart.

We dont even have a decent plan!

Im starving right now..

My arms are not in the proper class to fit. My mind is going crazy and my legs feel weaker and weaker by each step.

Why is this causing so much damage to me!

I caused lives before...i even killed a few people in my past but that didnt reaally mess me up unlike this conflict.

Do they really mean this much to me?

What is it thats stopping me from focusing?

Our bonds?

My past?

My own sins?

Being torn apart?

I cant seem to handle myself anymore.

Ive carried too much weights on my body.

Its time to give up and drop them..i cant handle my mistakes anymore longer.

This is how my life story ends.