She doesn't know

At school

Lauren's POV
The next day I was at my locker when the doors opened and y/n walked in except her head was held high she was looking at down I could see her red puffy eyes had she cried all night? She went to drew he hugged her he made eye contact at me he sent me a small smile I went to second period y/n has this class with me she walked in and walked to the back and just sat there the teacher said "y/n can you answer this question?" She looked up and wiped her faces of tears and looked at the question and said "5" and put her head back down she was right and everyone was shocked even the teacher no one has seen her like this the teacher said "y/n are you ok?" She nodded her head yes I could see everyone was worried just because she was a badass doesn't mean she was mean she was actually nice to everyone but we left her alone after that I wanted to talk to drew I found him and said "can we talk?" He said "yeah" we walked outside he said "what you need?" I said "why does y/n say she's okay when everyone can see she's not?" He said "you don't know about y/N's family do you?" I said "no" he sighed said "y/n is used to being alone from a young age she was abused no matter what did she would always get hit they would barely let her eat when she came out gay to them they beat her so bad they put her in a coma her parents kicked her out your parents found her on the street starving and barely living they look care of her and helped her they were like parents to her so when they died it killed her she cried and cried for 2 months straight she just kept saying it's my fault no matter what she wouldn't leave her bed she wouldn't eat she blamed herself she still does to this day every year on their anniversary she locks herself in her room with a picture of them and just curls on a ball and cries and cries you can hear her through her house I sit outside her door Incase she needs anything no matter what anytime you ask her if she's okay she will say yes because she hates putting her problems on other people everyone thinks that she has everything and that she's this badass but they don't see how she hasn't slept in the last 5 years they don't wake up in the middle of the night because of her screaming they don't see how broken she is when curls up in a ball in cries I'm the only one who knows her badass exterior is just because she wants everyone to believe she's okay she wants everyone to believe that she has everything it was 3 years ago she tried to kill her self when I asked her why she said "why would I want to live? How am I supposed to protect Lauren if I couldn't protect them it's my fault drew" after she said that she started to cut Lauren you don't like her I know and that's okay but she hates herself you saw how she was this protect right?" I said "yes why?" He said "that because she didn't slept after I left with you when I got back she was already curled up in her bed bawling her eyes out I listened to it all night I told her to stay home but she said "I can't drew my job is to protect her I have to" that's all she cares about Lauren is protecting you because even though you didn't know the truth she feels like you blame her even though she blames herself she just wants you to be okay lauren she wants you to be happy that's all" with that he left I was frozen I didn't know what to say I couldn't believe what he just told me I could never blame her but she blames herself for it I walked down the hallway thinking about drew said I didn't believe what he said but I'd find out if it's true I went to my next class which y/n was in when I got there she was already there with her head down the teacher was surprised she said "y/n can you tell me who painted the Mona Lisa?" She said "Leonardo de vinici" her voice cracked at the end her eye were swollen and red everyone was worried about her the teacher went back there she said "are you okay?" She said "yeah I'm fine im always fine dont worry about me please that's no ones job im fine just teach please" the teacher looked surprised but also looked worried like everyone else y/n was known for her tough exterior so seeing her like this was what everyone was worried about