And So It Is

WEEK 18

Madness. That 7 letter word describes my life to a 't' at the moment. I know they say you should try not to stress when you are pregnant but what they won't tell you is that it is literally impossible not to be. We had decided to move from the penthouse to an actual family home before the twins were born, and let me tell you trying to find the perfect forever home for your family was difficult. My grandma and Gigi bless their hearts had been bugging me since the moment I turned 16 weeks to find out the sex of the babies to help aide in their baby shower endeavors, Sebastian was working longer hours due to a new acquisition he got right before the wedding, which made him stress because he felt like he might miss something important in the babies development. Now I was constantly thinking about Chanel and how my kids might grow up not knowing their cousin and it weighed heavy on my heart and that was where 80 percent of my stress steamed. I kind of wanted to just bite the bullet and call or visit them so we could speak as adults but I knew, Sebastian would never allow that especially since I was now with children. I hadn't even told my dad I was pregnant because I knew he would tell Angela who would tell Melissa and I wanted them to know nothing about my life, but again Chanel was my heart and soul. I had some big decisions to make.

"Where's hubby at?" Desiree asked as she started putting the warmish gel on my belly.

I turned my head to look at the door "He should be here any moment," and just like magic Sebastian rushed into the room huffing and puffing like he just ran a marathon.

"I'm here, I'm here!" He kissed me on the lips before pulling the chair up next to me.

"Welcome, alright do you need a breather or can we get started?" Desiree asked sweetly he simply nodded and she powered on the machine.

"So are you wanting to know the genders today?"

I shook my head no "My mother in law and grandmother want to do a gender reveal for us so if you can just put the results in the envelope for us that would be great."

"Wait what? You were being serious?" Sebastian looked at me sadly but I thought gender reveals were cute and I wanted my own.

"Yes babe. So you'll just have to wait 3 more months." I patted his hand as Desiree moved the gel around my belly, while she did so I refreshed Sebastian on the first part of the appointment that he missed.

"So here they are." We looked at the scream and my emotion ass started crying as soon as I saw the head of my little babies.

"Aww it they have people shaped now." Sebastian cooed wiping a tear away, this whole pregnancy we had just become gross balls of tears.

"So I'm going to turn the screen toward me so I can get the gender on the babies." She smiled turning the screen toward her as she moved the the little stick around my belly.

I sighed knowing now was a good as time of any to tell him the news "So I'm anemic....which explains why I've been beyond tired and of course the constant eating of ice but before you freak out we are all fine I'll just have to take iron pills on top of my prenatals." Worry was still very present on his face. It's normal especially when you are expecting twins."

"She's right. No need to worry. Also I know what you are having I will clean you up and put the results in an envelope."

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I rolled my eyes plopping my legs over my husband taking a bite of the delicious pizza we ordered for dinner.

"I'm just sayin' I can open the envelope take a peek and I just won't tell you." Giving me a puppy dog pout he had been trying to get me to let him look at the gender results.

I patted his thigh he was so cute when he was trying to get his way "Except you will... Now my love drop it because it's not gonna happen the only two people who will know are your mama and my grandmama. Speaking of my grandmere... and family i was thinking of."

"Fuck no..." He threw his pizza down turning to me with a serious expression on his face.

"You don't even know what I'm going to say." I sat my pizza down on the coffee table.

"I do Mrs. Basile. Being pregnant is having you think over time about the twins not growing up around Chanel, which means you are now thinking about talking to your sister and or mother. It's not a good idea Anastasia you're already anemic and talking to them will just add unnecessary stress to you and the babies. You already said your piece and like I told you we will find a way to see Chanel and have her in our lives; but you talking to them is not gonna happen."

I knew he was right and it wasn't like I wanted them in my life again but still, "It just hurts before I left for college she was my whole life. I mean of course my sister manipulated into watching her sometimes but I didn't care she was the light in my dreary world. It isn't fair that our kids may never know her... plus my dad's birthday is coming up and I did tell him I might go visit him during our wedding soooo."

"Anastasia no. I'm not going to allow you to put yourself or our unborn twins in a position where something bad could happen, I don't know why you are constantly want to put yourself in painful and dangerous situations and now you dragging our babies into it. MERDA." He sweared once he realized what he said, but before he could fix it I pushed myself off the couch storming into our room locking the door.

"Baby open the door." He whispered from the other side as I slid down it.

"Go away! I know how people view me. Dumb Anastasia always trusting the wrong people, always giving chances and coming out looking even more stupid at the end of the day. Now I'm putting our kids in danger with my stupidity."

"Baby that isn't what I meant"

"Yes it is... and you are right. I can't help the way I am Sebastian. I wasn't kidding when I said I was over my mother and sister but I refuse to just not fight for my niece. Yeah she may be light skinned but my sister is already dogging on her weight and making her believe being fat or even a little chunky is the worse thing she could be." I got up opening the door to see a distraught Sebastian who quickly pulled me into a hug. "I'm sorry I over reacted hormones. I know you just want what is best for me, thing one and thing two." I smiled wrapping my arms around his neck placing kisses all over his face was he lifted me up causing me to wrap my legs around him.

"I should be done with this acquisition right before your dad's birthday, we can back to Utah, but if your mother, sister or that fuck face Jerome acts up we are peacing out."

"Thank you! Thank you. I love you so much. I know I'm such a hypocrite but she's my first baby."

"I know so me how much you love me." He kicked our door closed.

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